* yawn * I woke up feeling oh-so-sleepy. Hahaha.. I really never learn. Sleep early larh!! Aiyohhh.. Oh well.

I'm so exhausted. So exhausted I could do a cartwheel if that even makes sense.

i'm tired! Worst part is that I can't sleep well at d nite. Of course I can't. I've got to study! Study study study till I drop since there's 3 papers waiting for me T T

My brain hurts.

I'm thinking if I should risk taking a nap so I'm not so exhausted but I've got a feeling I might not wake up once I fall asleep.HAHA!

Joey sms-ed me..told me her that her electricity kaput.
I told her to study with candles and torchlights.
jonathan asked her to use her super shiny hands to reflect and shine.
And dentyne. lol..

* inside joke *. It's funny.

For instance, my room is messier than acceptable by my bro's standards XD(which is pretty messy ). How would I define something pass my messy acceptable standards? Even I myself can't find things in my own room. Something HAS to be done about that. Really.

But right now.. on a more SCARY note.. * screams *

I THINK I JUST SENT JOEY'S THUMBDRIVE INTO THE WASHING MACHINE.

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
* crosses fingers JOEY doesn't read this before I come up with an apology OR I find the silly thing *

I need to find it. I NEED to find it. I HAVE to find it. PLEASE BE POSSIBLE.

I'm serious. Because.. somehow or another.. I ended up taking her pendrive home on our las meet, I left it in my jacket pocket. Normally my maid always checks the pockets of our jeans and pants and stuff but I don't think she checks jacket pockets.

OMGGGGGG. * screams somemore *. How??? o.O
I want to ask my maid but i juz realized..she's already dump all the cloths in d washing machine dy!! * cries *. Die liow.

Please skip if you don't want me to spoil your disgustingly happy mood.

I FEEL SO FUDGING @#$% right now. If that even makes sense.

I feel like..
screaming..
pulling out all my hair..
smashing everything in my path..
going for therapy..
driving around aimlessly while listening to angsty music..

ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!

You don't get it, do you?
I TRIED FREAKING TELLING YOU BUT IT JUST DOESN'T SEEM TO GET THROUGH THAT LITTLE SKULL OF YOURS.

I dono why i being so emo.
it juz happend in so sudden.
everything juz come together.

ASS!

I DON LIKE YOU!
I HATE EVERYTHING!

I AM ON A RAMPAGE TO DESTROY EVERYTHING ON THE FACE OF THE PLANET!
OMG! STOP IT! ...

Yes, everything in caps is me SCREAMING. SHOUTING. at the TOP of my lungs.

You're a bastard! You're an asshole! You're something I should hate!
You're just.. this.. stain! That just refuses to get lost.

* breathes *..

I have developed to me, a bad habit of showing or allowing my feelings to be reflected on my face. It's not that I'm not able to control them, I could before. However, that doesn't seem to be the case any longer.

Blogging is fanstatic. I feel slightly better now.

Help me. Someone. I'm at my wits end. I feel like crying. I feel like slicing. I feel like running. I feel like hiding. I feel.. like I can't feel anymore.

Just me being random after i've calmed down. Prayer helps. I'm not kidding.

i wish...everything is still beautiful..

Have you ever STARED into the rain? yes i did!
This is frustrating. i feeling so sick now >.<
I need the lappie to do my work.
* sigh *. I might never finish my work at this rate...

STOP RAINING PLS!!!

anywhere....didcha miss me? =D

So, my darling uncle SI left today. Well, early this morning actually. According to joey, the Whole TAN's family(around 10 ppl or even more..don get shock..coz he is the only SON)and the 3 monkeys..but me sent him off to the airport. Shytt, i'm actually feeling bad now.Gahhhhh ~..too bad, too late to feel bad dy. sorry..i'm not able to send u..but is warm enuf to hav my msg in d rainy day rite..=)

I'll just probably have to be extra nice to him when he gets back.he's going to fight for his future..but kononya pergi pikat perempuan =D Yay!! GOOD FOR U! haha..Seriously, it's about time he settled down and stuff. he already wasted half year here doing ntg.A full time 'pai kah cai'.useless! =p
i donno when he'll only be back T T really wish to meet u again be4 i leave..but i know is kinda impossible..come UK visit me then!!
again..another good fren cao..less a person hang out for the time being dy.
i hate it when that happens.

.....I need to study. Maybe tonight or tml?? haha. Let's just go for a walk in the walk for now.or hav a cup of HOT chocolate.Fresh air will do me good.It always does. Even if it's just sitting in the park aimlessly staring into space. It makes me happy.
BUT is RAINING NOW......!
so wat does it meann???? ask me back to my study desk?!

.....oklo........Bye. teddy =(

1958- tis is my grandma when she was 36 yearls old XD

1960 - getting older..

1962 - suddenly she becomes so young coz she took lot of COLLEGEN = =

1972 -tis is my mom when she was 15 years old..

1978 - and when she is 21..she changed her hairdo coz of BeeGees..

1982~ and coz she met my dad..she changed her hairdo become like tis XD

1986 -after married..she become a full time aunty..and gav birth to my sista =)

1988 - and then me...!!

1992..followed up by my bro..tis hairdo...really YUCK!

2007- her daughter..miss erica XD

First Runner up-Grace Wong. Miss Hong Kong 2007 Winner-Kayi Cheung . Second Runner up-Lorretta Chow

Why is it that to you know what is good for you, you still opt to choose that will do you harm..

life seems to always has its way of making choose your options on almost just about anything.Do this or do that believe in this or believe in that..blah.. too many options and these somehow what makes our life complicated to live in on the first place..

Needless to say that we more often than not choose the easy way out and overlook the consequences..and yes we know what's good but sometimes we still take the risk of doing those that we know are bad simply just because they are much easier, much comfortable ...

I know, I.myself have always been in this, making decisions even the simplest one aren't really something I'm good at.
This is exactly the reasons why I'm trying to take these thoughts out of my head and is trying to convince myself why is it hard for me to do good things in which i know I will also be the one to benefit from it later on.. future perhaps

There seems to be so much options now for me to take, so many good things that may not be easy but I know it will be for the best .... tell me wat to do..

I'm taking my baby steps on all the changes and I'm really contemplating a lot.. One step at a time.I guess, I just need to keep doing those small good things and I know eventually everything will fall into its place..will get what i suppose to get and I will deserve it, I just need to believe that doing good things and choosing to do good is all for the better . It is hard but I know it will be for the best for me. pls tell me YES.

i always tell myself " No pain,no gain" . Each and every decision you make in your present life now will be what the future that lies ahead of you.. We are the driver of our own life.everything depends on our own decision. take time to be quiet each day, think of it..what is right and what is good, trust in yourself .. you'll get there and I know everything will be worth it ;)

work hard..teddy =D

* yawn * I woke up feeling oh-so-sleepy. Hahaha.. I really never learn. Sleep early larh!! Aiyohhh.. Oh well.

I'm so exhausted. So exhausted I could do a cartwheel if that even makes sense.

i'm tired! Worst part is that I can't sleep well at d nite. Of course I can't. I've got to study! Study study study till I drop since there's 3 papers waiting for me T T

My brain hurts.

I'm thinking if I should risk taking a nap so I'm not so exhausted but I've got a feeling I might not wake up once I fall asleep.HAHA!

Joey sms-ed me..told me her that her electricity kaput.
I told her to study with candles and torchlights.
jonathan asked her to use her super shiny hands to reflect and shine.
And dentyne. lol..

* inside joke *. It's funny.

For instance, my room is messier than acceptable by my bro's standards XD(which is pretty messy ). How would I define something pass my messy acceptable standards? Even I myself can't find things in my own room. Something HAS to be done about that. Really.

But right now.. on a more SCARY note.. * screams *

I THINK I JUST SENT JOEY'S THUMBDRIVE INTO THE WASHING MACHINE.

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.
* crosses fingers JOEY doesn't read this before I come up with an apology OR I find the silly thing *

I need to find it. I NEED to find it. I HAVE to find it. PLEASE BE POSSIBLE.

I'm serious. Because.. somehow or another.. I ended up taking her pendrive home on our las meet, I left it in my jacket pocket. Normally my maid always checks the pockets of our jeans and pants and stuff but I don't think she checks jacket pockets.

OMGGGGGG. * screams somemore *. How??? o.O
I want to ask my maid but i juz realized..she's already dump all the cloths in d washing machine dy!! * cries *. Die liow.

Please skip if you don't want me to spoil your disgustingly happy mood.

I FEEL SO FUDGING @#$% right now. If that even makes sense.

I feel like..
screaming..
pulling out all my hair..
smashing everything in my path..
going for therapy..
driving around aimlessly while listening to angsty music..

ALL AT THE SAME TIME!!

You don't get it, do you?
I TRIED FREAKING TELLING YOU BUT IT JUST DOESN'T SEEM TO GET THROUGH THAT LITTLE SKULL OF YOURS.

I dono why i being so emo.
it juz happend in so sudden.
everything juz come together.

ASS!

I DON LIKE YOU!
I HATE EVERYTHING!

I AM ON A RAMPAGE TO DESTROY EVERYTHING ON THE FACE OF THE PLANET!
OMG! STOP IT! ...

Yes, everything in caps is me SCREAMING. SHOUTING. at the TOP of my lungs.

You're a bastard! You're an asshole! You're something I should hate!
You're just.. this.. stain! That just refuses to get lost.

* breathes *..

I have developed to me, a bad habit of showing or allowing my feelings to be reflected on my face. It's not that I'm not able to control them, I could before. However, that doesn't seem to be the case any longer.

Blogging is fanstatic. I feel slightly better now.

Help me. Someone. I'm at my wits end. I feel like crying. I feel like slicing. I feel like running. I feel like hiding. I feel.. like I can't feel anymore.

Just me being random after i've calmed down. Prayer helps. I'm not kidding.

i wish...everything is still beautiful..

Have you ever STARED into the rain? yes i did!
This is frustrating. i feeling so sick now >.<
I need the lappie to do my work.
* sigh *. I might never finish my work at this rate...

STOP RAINING PLS!!!

anywhere....didcha miss me? =D

So, my darling uncle SI left today. Well, early this morning actually. According to joey, the Whole TAN's family(around 10 ppl or even more..don get shock..coz he is the only SON)and the 3 monkeys..but me sent him off to the airport. Shytt, i'm actually feeling bad now.Gahhhhh ~..too bad, too late to feel bad dy. sorry..i'm not able to send u..but is warm enuf to hav my msg in d rainy day rite..=)

I'll just probably have to be extra nice to him when he gets back.he's going to fight for his future..but kononya pergi pikat perempuan =D Yay!! GOOD FOR U! haha..Seriously, it's about time he settled down and stuff. he already wasted half year here doing ntg.A full time 'pai kah cai'.useless! =p
i donno when he'll only be back T T really wish to meet u again be4 i leave..but i know is kinda impossible..come UK visit me then!!
again..another good fren cao..less a person hang out for the time being dy.
i hate it when that happens.

.....I need to study. Maybe tonight or tml?? haha. Let's just go for a walk in the walk for now.or hav a cup of HOT chocolate.Fresh air will do me good.It always does. Even if it's just sitting in the park aimlessly staring into space. It makes me happy.
BUT is RAINING NOW......!
so wat does it meann???? ask me back to my study desk?!

.....oklo........Bye. teddy =(

1958- tis is my grandma when she was 36 yearls old XD

1960 - getting older..

1962 - suddenly she becomes so young coz she took lot of COLLEGEN = =

1972 -tis is my mom when she was 15 years old..

1978 - and when she is 21..she changed her hairdo coz of BeeGees..

1982~ and coz she met my dad..she changed her hairdo become like tis XD

1986 -after married..she become a full time aunty..and gav birth to my sista =)

1988 - and then me...!!

1992..followed up by my bro..tis hairdo...really YUCK!

2007- her daughter..miss erica XD

First Runner up-Grace Wong. Miss Hong Kong 2007 Winner-Kayi Cheung . Second Runner up-Lorretta Chow

Why is it that to you know what is good for you, you still opt to choose that will do you harm..

life seems to always has its way of making choose your options on almost just about anything.Do this or do that believe in this or believe in that..blah.. too many options and these somehow what makes our life complicated to live in on the first place..

Needless to say that we more often than not choose the easy way out and overlook the consequences..and yes we know what's good but sometimes we still take the risk of doing those that we know are bad simply just because they are much easier, much comfortable ...

I know, I.myself have always been in this, making decisions even the simplest one aren't really something I'm good at.
This is exactly the reasons why I'm trying to take these thoughts out of my head and is trying to convince myself why is it hard for me to do good things in which i know I will also be the one to benefit from it later on.. future perhaps

There seems to be so much options now for me to take, so many good things that may not be easy but I know it will be for the best .... tell me wat to do..

I'm taking my baby steps on all the changes and I'm really contemplating a lot.. One step at a time.I guess, I just need to keep doing those small good things and I know eventually everything will fall into its place..will get what i suppose to get and I will deserve it, I just need to believe that doing good things and choosing to do good is all for the better . It is hard but I know it will be for the best for me. pls tell me YES.

i always tell myself " No pain,no gain" . Each and every decision you make in your present life now will be what the future that lies ahead of you.. We are the driver of our own life.everything depends on our own decision. take time to be quiet each day, think of it..what is right and what is good, trust in yourself .. you'll get there and I know everything will be worth it ;)

work hard..teddy =D