I had awoken this morning with the same headache i had gone to bed with. I felt as though my brain was about to split open. And no, i didn't take the meds last night thinking i would be fine. I was right. I guess all i needed was rest.(it juz an alasan for myself NOT-TO-STUDY ) .The physical, mental and emotional stress has taken it's toll on my body and it shut down to recuperate. This always happens to me.. Though i'm so stubborn i seldom learn from my mistakes. * sigh *.. I'm going to have a hard time in life. But i guess it spruces things up then.
The exam timetable is out.
1st Dec - F6 tax
2nd Dec - F4 Corporate and Business Law
9th Dec - F7 Financial Reporting
I'm quite happy wit the timetable coz it is quite relax..the LAW paper is on the 2nd day!! i juz wan to finish it as FAS as possible!!!IRRITATE R!(FYI i only hav SHORT TERM memory..the statement juz cant stay long in my brain..WHY??!!)
was reading newspaper juz now.'A SPM student was jumping off of an apartment coz of exam stress'.= = it makes me pondering on suicide. (I NOT GOIN TO DO TAT..don worry)Most people think of suicide as a sort of last resort to rid themselves of problems. Okay, so maybe it's more like they are running away then ridding themselves of their problem at hand. But how could you live with yourself, a pure bred coward?
You're only given this one shot at life. Don't waste this opportunity. Taking your own life is just being SELFISH. The problems will never go away. They'll remain there for someone else to deal with.Think of those around you. To someone somewhere you might be their world yet you don't realize this. Once you're gone, where will their will to live come from? I do realize that it isn't good to base your life on someone else's but until we're able to find our own strength, can't we lean on someone else first?
Selfish beings is just begging to swallow you whole eternity. Those who risk themselves and face things head on are the HEROES. So, which are you?
And another thing to ponder on is what if your suicide attemp fails? Only to leave you in a much worst condition than before.. Jumping off the ledge of a building only to end up with a broken back which results in you being paralyzed? Then you'll only be jailed within your own body of suffering and depression.. Think of those you'll mourn over your death and the future you yourself chose to throw down the drain..
Always Think twice be4 action =)
G'nite Teddy =)