teddymin

2011-04-26T16:46:00.002+01:00

869..

I like unicorns. I like the black colour. I like the white colour. I like the red colour. I like reading and loosing myself completely in romance novels. I like music from the 80s and 90s. I like Vanness Wu and I'm afraid he shall never lose my interest. I like being silly. I like climbing trees. I like monkey-ing around and being absurdly inappropriate. I like playing online make up games. I like going shopping like everything is free. I like having a good sweat out and not caring about my appearances. I like having unplanned visits from friends. I like baking yet claiming I am completely without skill in the kitchen. I like boasting yet trying my best to be as humble as I can. I like people to notice things about me but I don't want to mention them. I like dogs but don't always like the responsibility. I like long hair. I like feeling superior. I like having playful banter. I like Disney animations. I like Sleeping beauty. I like being liked. I don't quite like liking as much. I like to think I have tons of confidence though I know the total opposite to be only the truth. I like that I still have my innocence intact. I like the idea of marriage. I like the idea of having a husband who would love me as much as I think I would like him. I like the idea of having a son who ll be a muscle guy. I like that I have such idealistic ideas of the world though it really is a horrid place.

All in all, I like me :) and i start blogging again!!

Good nite =D

2011-04-16T16:42:00.002+01:00

859...

I have thoughts...

I don't know if anyone else feels this way but I often find that I'm a coward.

I always tell people that if you don't take the risk, there is no way you can achieve the what you want. You have to give some, take a chance and then only be rewarded..no shortcut..

I always ask myself : what am i doing now? What held me back? Why didn't I?
I never did..i was afraid. afraid of what?

As usual. That's what I think. That's how I feel.. I always think I'm being compared, or that other people will. I mean, won't they?

Let's face it, nobody likes to feel common. Especially me. Which is exactly why I try not to go for something everyone else seems to be heading for. Might explain why I doing ACCA instead of a degree, why i loves horror movie, why i loves you and why i have never read Harry Potter. Everyone wants to be special, important and to feel like they are worth something. Either me.

I guess I knew it all along, so I didn't say or do anything. I denied it all the time. Maybe I was trying to tell myself that if I told the whole world, maybe I would believe it too. But the question is, why didn't I say anything?

I mean, if I had work harder, I might've been able to move on. But I didn't do any of those. Instead, for two long dreadful years I was tight. It's so stupid now..

Is anyone still wondering why I didn't? because I didn't want to become just another number. To be counted as girl who had an unrealistic dream. I would've sounded so insignificant that way. To be forgoten in just an instant. I wanted to be someone more. To be remembered. To be important. To matter. I wanted to be seen, heard and felt.

It was easier to be the lovely girlfriend instead of a girl who has dreams.

2011-03-28T15:48:00.001+01:00

840..

有某种时刻
想起很久以前的事
陌生而又熟悉
一种心情泛滥得再也无法收拾
寂寞，不是因为没人陪，而是因为没人懂
寂寞无声，它无法用言语来表达。
当我们闭上眼睛，它就会降临在身边，无论何时何地，哪怕身处喧嚣的人群。
我不怕寂寞，我享受寂寞……

2011-02-23T17:23:00.001Z

806..

我不曾想过你会这样看我.

2011-02-15T15:05:00.002Z

797..

其实有时候我发现我是个EQ很高的人
或其实有时候我发现我是个很简单的人
或其实有时候我发现我是个完美主义者
我希望一切发生的或就要发生的都可以是我想象的
有时候其实可以很简单很快乐可是就是我的脾气性格破坏了一切

亲爱的，对不起
是我破坏了原先的快乐
不是我要隐瞒只是有些事情我不知道怎样开口
其实就是很简单的东西我不知道我自己在在意什么在不爽什么
对不起，给了你一个不愉快的情人节.

2010-09-02T02:10:00.003+01:00

很紧张很紧张
姐姐要嫁人了心情很复杂
高兴是她终于有人要了！！！！！XD
伤心是她不能再像以前那样陪我了=（
从小一起玩到大打架打到大
说真的还真的有点不舍得
不过这毕竟是件喜事 XD 应该要开开心心！

姐，祝你们白头到老与子偕老！♥

630..

2010-08-24T08:29:00.000+01:00

621..

我喜欢静静的感觉
喜欢一个人静静想你
静静的思念你的感觉
静静地
把对你的思念绕在心头
日日夜夜静静的等候
静静的等候
亲爱的
你在哪里..

2010-08-14T04:52:00.002+01:00

611..

有很多很多的心情不知道该以怎样的方式去说
心里有很多很多的沉重始终放不下
唯有靠文字来表述

这里，是我最好的去处
也许会很沉闷但是，这始终是我认为最好的一种方式
也许故事写完了。我的心也就彻底被掏空了

我想我是幸福的
在22岁的尾巴上思想说不上非常成熟但也不会太幼稚
学会放弃一些执作学会放手一些过往
终于明白为永远不会属于自己的东西执著
真的很笨
开始珍惜已经拥有的开始爱惜属于自己的
原来幸福它离我不远

可是为什么我的眼眶还是湿了？
决定某些决定原来真的很痛
路还很长
有些决心总是要下的
而未来也要用全新的心情去面对
或许依然混乱或许不够坚定
不过我还是向前
只要我愿意总是可以到达心底的那个地方

其实有些事情真的很奇怪
你以为自己只是在怀念你以为你可以做得到
可是这只不过是你不敢直面现实的借口

我们总是喜欢用别人的幸福来对比自己的不幸
却忘记了原来自己已经是那么的幸福了
我拥有的已经很多

不再抱怨了
每个人的幸福要靠自己来发现
有些东西你很想要可它会让你很痛
只有使你的心感到温暖的东西才会让你幸福

所以
我想我是幸福的
至少从此我会努力让自己幸福

2010-08-13T08:53:00.000+01:00

610..

你一直说的那个公园已经拆了
还记得荡著秋千日子就飞起来
漫漫的下午阳光都在脸上撒野
你那傻气我真是想念
那时候小小的你还没学会叹气
谁又会想到他们现在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的样子倒是一点没变
时间走了谁还在等呢
这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那么伤感
世界太复杂你说单纯很难
我当然都明白
可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨
我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享
那条路走呀走呀走呀总要回家
两只手握著晃呀晃呀舍不得放
你不知道吧后来后来我都在想
跟你走吧管它去哪呀
这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那么伤感
世界太复杂你说单纯很难
我当然都明白
可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨
我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享
可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨
我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享
我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心其实更长

劉若英 - 我們沒有在一起

2010-08-06T19:48:00.002+01:00

603..

最后我还是哭了
哭不是因为我伤心而是我不懂怎样面对
以前的那个问题还是存在我一直都很天真的认为一切都解决了其实并没有
我真的不懂怎样去面对去解决
他给我的是很铁定的承诺安全感可是我给他的却是一次又一次的失望
原来谈恋爱真的不是想象中的那样简单我真的累了
谁能告诉我一段不被肯定的感情能维持多久？能有多快乐？
我或许可以搞段地下情可是你我会快乐吗？
我终于明白为什么当年祝英台会那么伤心
我终于明白姐姐当年为什么哭了

2010-08-06T16:29:00.002+01:00

603..

dun cry erica yap! you are not allowed to!

2010-04-20T22:37:00.002+01:00

405..

的却我昨天有失落了一下很想找个人说说可是说着说着就不知要说什么其实我就只想有个人逗我可惜没有只有孤单的夜晚陪伴我...

昨夜想了很多..就觉得人应当学会掌控自己的情绪..不要让失落的心情起伏很大，越压越深，释放的时候不仅伤害自己也影响周围关心自己的人..

我知道了我会学着的..毕竟我不小了难道还要人时时逗我开心？

2010-03-15T01:48:00.006Z

369..

去年的今天我是一个人
今年的今天多了一个人
那个人突然地出现在我的生活
这五个月他带给我很多回忆
昨天的这个时候他对我说了一些话
杀那间我很想全部都答应他可是我知道他喝醉了但是我却感觉很甜蜜
他也许不是最好的但我不会再奢求了
我知足我满足
打铃，白色情人节快乐!♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

♥♥♥

2010-02-21T14:40:00.002Z

344...

今晚很静家里就我一个人静静地坐在这里
两个月好像昨天明天就要回去了你问我这个假期快乐吗我会说：'还好.'
看到家人朋友然后过年当然快乐但是其实真的没有我想象中的那个气氛
明天成绩放榜我不知道会是怎样不敢再期望那么高不想再有失望的感觉
以前的我总是会自信满满的告诉人家我会做！我一定可以过关！可是现在我没有哪个勇气了
不是面子问题而是失望的感觉真的很难受我不知道要怎样形容

再多一个星期瑞切尔就要会马来西亚了不会再回英国了
不舍得真的不舍得
很想念去年的夏天我在想今年的夏天会是什么样子呢？
也不知道为什么这两天心情那么差好像有很多事情要烦有喜有悲
真的不懂要怎样形容我现在的心情

2010-02-21T03:00:00.000Z

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2010-02-08T01:48:00.002Z

330..

他终于说出口了
我不明白为什么这个时候他还要对我说这些
不管什么理由原因过了就是过了我不想去弥补也不想去追回
大家已经很清楚你和我是不可能的为什么还要钻牛角尖呢
你告诉我你不想每一次都要因为我帮你做某些事才请我吃饭
你说你想毫无目的的相约我就约我其实我想告诉你是可以的
其实我真的有一直把你当朋友我不介意
可是当你对我越来越好时我就觉得我是不应该接受我不应该令你觉得说还有希望
昨晚你说你要我陪你过情人节我想都没想就拒绝了你对不起我真的办不到
也许对你来说我很残忍但是我们之间真的需要一个人做个了断
对不起.

2010-02-02T16:06:00.003Z

324..

Today was such a relaxing day :)

I did absolutely nothing worthwhile if measured by productivity.
I woke up at about 930 pm. and lazed in bed until my dad shout at me Mmmmm..

I like mummy.
She knows exactly what i likes!
She bought nasi lemak for me.
However, she added FISH inside which I absolutely DISLIKE..
But I guess I shouldn't be complaining. rite? xD

I watched Ps. I Love You while enjoying my tea time.. yes..AGAIN.. For the gaziiiiiiiillionth time already, I think I could almost tell you the whole story xD I think that's the only movie based on a book which I found the movie better than the book.

And..Went grocery shopping with daddy. I don't know what we bought (not much, really..) but we rang up the bill to almost hundred plus with one beg. haha.. me thinks thats funny :)

Afterwards, I ran running with Joo. Woah! he had good stamina! I wish I could do that. haii.. While I was running, I could feel such aches in my stomach. It's been really bothering me today and it sucks! pink panadol plsssssssssss!

It's so hot at night! went out dinner with mate. and something funny happend.
fren A : ape itu WIFI punya passwork kak?
waitress (malay gal) : FRENCH FRIES?? oh~~ sedang goreng..tunggu jap~(we actually not ordering FRENCH FRIES but asking for WIFI password)
fren A,B,C and me : ............... LOL!

yes. i know it is a bit rude laughing in front of her. but seriously..i really cannot tahan! LOL!!!!!

so. one day passed.

walk. eat. crap. drink. sleep. yea,tat is my current life style.

2010-01-29T05:06:00.004Z

320..

星期五的登加楼特别宁静
我的心情也一样
在多几个星期就要回英国又要过那一个人的生活
虽然是一个人但我没有很不习惯反而我爱上了那里的生活
一个人静静地生活感觉真的不一样
回来已经有一个多月了我不知道我自己做了什么
这个假期我期待了很久但是当我回来其实跟想象中的有点差距
回来感觉当然是好的看见很久没见的家人朋友但是贪心的我总是觉得好像少了些什么好像错过了很多东西好像很不习惯我不习惯天气不习惯某些人我竟然会对这熟悉的地方有不习惯那熟悉的感觉好像不见了

这几天好像发生了不少事虽然不是我的但就是觉得事情可以说要来就来是不是意味着是时候建立我的防卫墙？
有很多决定需要我决定我有试过很理智的去决定可是到最后我还是放弃了原本的
以前的我总是相信 ‘船到桥头自然直’ 原来其实是不可以的我有我的牵挂我有我必须考虑的人事物
家人是最大的因素其实有些事我已经有了决定可是就是过不了他们
他们觉得我很自私他们觉得我不应该做这样的决定他们觉得我应该听他们的不应该说他们觉得我一定要听他们的
从小我就是个无忧无虑的小孩或许你可以说是没主见的小孩饭来张口钱来伸手什么事与决定都轮不到我去烦
我有屋住我有车驾我有钱用但那全都不是我的我要的不是这种生活
我要尝试靠我自己即使生活苦一点也无所谓至少我尝试过机会我真的不想放
人因梦想而伟大为什么不去追求可是追求的同时总需要放弃一些你不愿放弃的
唉也许现在想这些谈这些有些太早了
好吧好好享受我最后一个月的假期在打算！ xD

2010-01-17T04:39:00.002Z

308..

昨夜参加旧同学的婚礼
喝了少少酒突然很有感触
还记得当初大家穿着校服在学校嘻嘻哈哈
转眼间他要开始他人生的令一个生活
恭喜！

突然觉得人生是短暂的
读书工作恋爱结婚生子都是我们必须经过的
只是我们不知道不确定是谁愿意陪我们走这条路

在茫茫人海中要找到适合的不容易
但我找到了
我不知道你是不是那个适合的会不会陪我走下去
但至少我知道现在你脑海里满满都是我这已经足够了
我会记得你跟我说过的话
我们钩手指的约定
我一定会让它实现

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-01-12T01:53:00.004Z

303..

No wish could be any warmer than this,
I guess my birthday wishes to you are the warmest.

No body could be any dearer than you,
The more I think the more it becomes quite clear that there couldnt be another one as nice as sweet as you.

It means so much by having you,
and today seems like a good day for telling you so and wishing you all happiness you so deserve.

Happy Birthday! With Lots of Love! *hugs*

Westfield [211209] ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2010-01-05T14:48:00.003Z

297..

今天他开口了
你知道吗当初的我是多么渴望这一天的来临
左等右等还是等不到
你告诉我不是你不要开口而是因为你工作关系没时间
好非常好的理由
如果是半年前也许我会兴奋到疯掉
但是今天我竟然比我想象中的我还要冷静
我说：'是，他是！'

曾经我有问过我自己如果他开口我会不会答应？
我真的犹豫过动摇过
机会我给了不是一次不是两次而是很多次是你一次又一次把它放走
不要告诉我你的后悔你的借口你的苦衷
那是多余的

我不曾那么果断
我很高兴因为即使你不开口我也很肯定我要的是他
不需要比较不需要重新考虑因为现在我的心满满都是他
很不好意思我必须告诉你机会我不会再给
我的快乐悲伤不再是你给我我也不需要
你再也不是我日夜所思的那一个
对不起再见.

2010-01-03T20:32:00.002Z

295..

有时候真的很矛盾
有时候我很希望梦想成真
但这一刻我却不希望

‘自志之明’很适合用在我身上
明明就没有这样的能力为什么还要去做
给了人希望到最后又一手摧毁
那又何必呢?

2009-12-11T02:02:00.002Z

251..

亲爱的,

宁静的夜晚真的会显得特别孤单
这里的月光还是一样照人就像你那每天不经意的笑容
只是我有多久没有看过了呢很想念那样的笑容
我每天都坐在房里数着我们的点点滴滴然后把它锁在脑海里
我常常在想这气息里是否有过你的不舍和你对我的思念

我记不清楚自己从何时开始这样的思念你了或许从来就没有间断过吧
今天的天气很好我仰望着天空看着你的月亮我的太阳

我开始珍惜已经拥有的开始爱惜属于自己的
原来幸福不是一场盛大的晚宴
而是一点一滴的积累
是你给我的

我只想让你知道我.真的.很.想念.你.

2009-12-09T16:25:00.002Z

249..

原來我很久沒有這樣靜靜地坐在電腦前讓情绪蔓延
我還是沒有變做事縂是走神不時望著墙壁發呆
偶尔喜歡安靜地躺在床上看天花板
這裡沒有了那些小小的碎花，只有白白一片
寂寞變得分外顯眼。

一個人
知道是什麽概念嗎?
我來我從未正視過這個詞。

原来它是

一個人沒有家人陪伴
一個人沒有朋友陪伴
一個人沒有愛人陪伴

我只梳一種頭髮穿一種衣服走同一条路
我喜歡這樣不顧一切沒心沒肺地活著
我喜歡做一些他們無法想象的事情然後看著他們目瞪口呆
我喜歡不停地吃同一款口味的餅乾冰淇淋讓他們厭膩
我還喜歡反復看同一部電影更在他們大笑的同時我面无表情

一個人
不是沒有人陪不是缺乏愛情更不是寂寞

一個人
是想見不能見
是還回蕩在腦海中的空虛

一個人
是這個世界
無論我躲到哪都還是同一個世界

我一個人要努力扛下整個世界

放了我吧！

2009-12-03T02:09:00.002Z

243..

再过多四天就考试了
其实心情还蛮平静的也没有上一学期那样压力
我不知道为什么
其实这一次的考试要准备的都准备的七七八八可是很多时候努力是不够的所以现在我可以做的就是祈祷再祈祷
我不祈求百分百中我只要50就好 =D

其实我现在的心情很复杂
其实很多事情围绕这我
我不知道应该用什么心情去面对它
我选择逃避不问不提不想这是唯一可以让我觉得快乐的方法
好吧就这样吧！当个鸵鸟也无所谓高兴就好！

对！现在的我很高兴！很高兴！很高兴！

2009-12-01T13:16:00.002Z

241..

今天的心情原本还好的
都是你！为什么一直要重复说那一些东西
要说的我已经说了为什么你就是不明白为什么你就是要绕着那话题
我已经试着不去提了我也试着去迁就你了我也不想和你吵
我出声你说我顶嘴我不出声你说我默认你到底要我怎样为什么你要这样
我知道我来英国的目的我知道我是来求学的我知道我应该做些什么
我已经向你保证了我会做好我的本分
如果我现在告诉你我和那一个他在一起你会反应那么大吗？
好听一点你是要我努力读书难听一点你是先入为主对别人有偏见
我们大家都很清楚你在想什么
为什么你就是要把事情弄得这样不愉快

有时候我真的觉得很辛苦也许是我的问题我真的发现我们的沟通问题越来越严重了
我知道对你来说我还是个小女孩我也知道要你全听我的也不可能毕竟你是长辈但是至少你偶尔听听我的想法
以前我什么事情都会告诉你但是我现在可以很肯定的告诉你以后发生什么事我都不会再告诉你了我真的怕了

现在这一刻我真的不想和你说话
请原谅你所谓我的任性对不起

2009-11-29T22:20:00.002Z

239..

我终于21了。。。。
终于终于感觉好像很期待
当它真的来临时其实没有想象中的很惊喜很快乐
总是觉得它意味这一些东西
21 21 21 要说很大了也不大要说小也并非
就觉得肩膀重了
不知道是不是考试要来临了无形的压力
总是会想很多

明年将会是大家的毕业典礼而我的呢？
其实说真的我不知道我看不见我的未来
我只知道我需要尽我的能力
今年的生日愿望不一样
以往都希望自己这样自己那样大致上都是物质的
可是今年我却希望自己与身边的人可以快乐些
我发现我的快乐逐渐减少了顾虑也越来越多了
总是会觉得自己做的不够多不够好
有时候不要对自己要求太高也许时件好事

够了够了。。生日本来就应该快乐的。。

PS ：谢谢 11A 的每一位，利而兹的那两位，伦敦的那一位，还有很多很多的你们 =) 谢谢你们的惊喜祝福礼物。。
真的很高兴为我寂寞生日增添不少的快乐 =D <3

祝我生日快乐 =)

2009-11-27T01:44:00.002Z

237...

刚收到家人的电话他们祝我生日快乐
并没有很快乐突然有种失落的感觉
当失落的时候，特别在夜里
会突然想要听到一首歌

开始在脑海中回想很多事情，昨天发生的，上个星期发生的，去年今天发生的
想要努力去回忆记起那些故事，那些哭着笑着的脸
但是很多已经忘记了，还有少部分正在渐渐被遗忘
即使我那样努力去回忆，
记忆总是和时间成反比
总是会有很多被认为是难以忘却的时刻，然而却在不久忘得一干二净
那些记忆像是被淹没了。。

伦敦刮了很大的风，没有太阳也没有月亮更不用说星星
很多东西都会被风吹散，像是记忆里的痛苦快乐
忘记了曾经的故事忘记了曾经做过的事只是隐隐记得当时是悲伤或是快乐的

你说这是好事还是坏事？

祝我生日快乐。

2009-11-26T00:11:00.003Z

236...

I suddenly thought of something..guess what..is his smell! OMG me!

How oodd is it if you are in a room and you can smell yourself.Not your sweaty arm pits but your actual smell, like your own scent? Really has such thing??!!

you know you can actually recognize your partner or friend or family by their smell, it's like either comforting or annoying.but your own smell, I don't know what to think of it..what you think about it? XD

Maybe it's like benci other peoples smell but loving your own farts hahaha..!!

Okay that was super random..BUT I AM JUST SO BORED!!

I was just thinking about something Ivan said last night while he was online. hahaha.. Made me think about some things.. Like sniffing.....

I don't mean to do it and i'm not doing it all the time, but i appreciate guy's collogne wan ok! if it smells nice then i'd like to sit next to you xD coz you smells nice. hahahaha.. or maybe i sit next to you coz i find you so amusing.. Maybe.

I also find those hair creams/gels/spray/whatever other hair products that smell really nice.. It's sooooooooo addictive!!! Don you think so??I smell until.. can go high wan you know..XD it's the same sensation as smelling patrol or mayb elephant glue? only it's more masculine. hahahaa..

This applies for guys and gals though. I know i'm weird..I think everyone will suddenly begin walking 10 feet further away from me now. =(

I'm just saying this coz i'm addicted to someone's scent right now (the strawberry and D&G smell XD)

2009-11-21T09:20:00.002Z

231..

星期六了！再多两个星期六就考试了！
考完试就可以回家了！！
这个学期不知道要这么形容就觉得一切都过得好快！
上了两个月半的课第四个月就考试了好刺激哦！
这个学期我完全感觉不到压力就觉得尽力就好或也许我看开了！
曾经有位学长告诉我选择读这科的我们最需要的是毅力
不及格是平常是就算不及格了十次我们还是要以平常心对待总有一天一定可以过！
他做到了！恭喜 =)
我已经有心里准备了我知道这条路不容易走可是不管用多久时间我一定要把它完成！
毕竟好的东西是难得的就手得到的东西就不可贵了对吧？

好吧！去读书吧~ 为了本小姐以后 '买东西不用看价钱牌 '的梦想.. 加油爱丽卡 ~♥

2009-11-15T17:18:00.003Z

265..

happpiie biiiirthday ah suan ~ ~ [London Zoo,August 09]

2009-11-08T00:30:00.002Z

258..

刚看了 MJ This is It 突然觉得人生真的很难预测
那部戏是讲述 MJ 筹备演唱会的幕后花絮目的是为了纪念他
当时是年初他还活生生的唱着歌跳着舞很有活力
在看的同时我在想一个五十岁的人居然可以又唱有跳真的很不简单
随便飙个高音都是好听的
同时也看到了他对这场演唱会的心思
原来办一场演唱会不是件简单的事
他果然是天王！

可是距离演唱会的不久他去世了
一场曾几轰动一时的演唱会还没能开幕就这样落幕了真的很可惜

我在想如果他知道会有那么一天他还会那么用心筹备吗？

很多时候当我们还没去做一件事之前我们都会去猜测它后来会是怎样
当我们知道我们最后得到的不是预料的我们会做的少一些就觉得做那么多也是浪费的或者是退缩
很多人都觉得了了件事就好了根本没必要花那么多心思和努力
可是往往当事情发生了我们却后悔当初为什么做多一些

今天不知明天事为什么宁愿事后后悔也不要在之前花多点心思
我想他的精神是对的当然他不知道他会死但他还是尽心尽力的去做他该做的
虽然他始终不能完成他的梦是个遗憾但至少它是个美丽的遗憾没有遗憾就不是人生
但至少他曾经花心思努力过
我相信他现在是在笑着的。。
永远怀念你。

2009-11-06T11:28:00.002Z

256..

A-Lin : P.S.我愛你

我想要成为你的眼
把最美的风景输进你的心中
我想要成为你的手
好让我从现在到以后
占有你温柔一刻不放过
恨不得把明天没收
让你永远不会变动
专注的爱着我

我爱你没有保留
我爱你就到最后
有些人值得等候
有些悲伤值得忍受
我爱你不许冲动
生命尽头反正以成空
需要你记得我们那么爱过

我要听你熟记笑容
怕未来快乐变得贵重
要是少了我你有多寂寞
恨不得把明天没收
让你永远不会变动
专注的爱着我
我爱你没有保留
我爱你就到最后
有些人值得等候
有些悲伤值得忍受
我爱你不许冲动
生命尽头反正以成空
需要你记得我们那么爱过
太阳不会放弃天空
哪怕你不在属于我
我会在不同的窗口给你拥抱

我爱你没有保留
我爱你就到最后
有些人值得等候
有些悲伤值得忍受
我爱你不许冲动
生命尽头反正以成空
只要你记得我们那么爱过
我忘不掉你第一次吻我

ALin - 難得

我还记得我挽着你的手
天冷时候一起躲在棉被中
那时我们不害怕犯错
那时以为天空多辽阔
朋友都说你后来变真多
总是避谈纯真坦白那时候
体贴的人不再追问我
只说你也有梦他也有梦
虽然难得不必心痛
我以为我成熟以为从此就自由
我尝试着快乐快乐却不陪着我
爱没有回来了你已经离开我
回忆紧紧缠着我像当初不肯放手
我以为我成熟以为我能好好过
我尝试着堕落当我想你的时候
爱不会回来了你已经离开我
却一直住在我心中
如果傻傻的承诺现在还在一起吗
情侣龃龉常常有
如果寂寞的时候已经学会去推托
他也有梦我也有梦
这样的爱实在难得

2009-11-01T15:11:00.002Z

251...

十一月了。。
十二月要考试了。。
多一个多月就要回家了。。
我和你也一个月多了。。
时间都过得好快。。

这一个月是甜蜜的。。
很希望天天都可以看到你。。
不需要问你几时要走。。
刚刚看着你的背影离开真的很舍不得
知道为什么我叫你不要来吗？
因为。。我讨厌离别的感觉。。真的很讨厌
很想时间会停留
很想只有我们两个人的世界
很多很想很想。。

突然觉得原来一个人是寂寞的。。
突然发现我的心情会因为你而改变。。

2009-10-30T19:44:00.002Z

249..

Since I'm not feeling too well, I've really got nothing much to do besides sleep. You're sort of excused from all other obligations until you get well. That is pretty nice, if you ask me. So, I'm going to take advantage of that. I actually have been for the past week but..hmp!

I believe that..
When you're sick, you should eat anything and everything you want because, if not you just won't eat. =D Lovely theory. It should be made into a law. I have ice-cream cravings when my cough is at its worst.

my finger is itchy..just want to update..

btw..

Happy Halloween ppl!

2009-10-27T23:05:00.002Z

246..

Wanted to post something inspiration that i've been thinking about for the past few days but then..I decided against it.Maybe for another time xD It's almost 11pm and i still alive! I don't wanna sleep coz i dun wan =)

I'm just so annoyed. Why? Because NONE of YOU are online right now to keep me company and entertain me. In the end I'm left all alone to stare at the computer screen and imagine.. well, whatevr my cooky imagination can come up with. Please, my imagination is wild, WILD~

Gosh, my stomach feeling so so so..hmm..dunno how to describe. I told myself i dun wan to be women next round! NO WAY! hmp..I wanna shoot something. Or maybe bite something... I'm listening to all oldies right now

I need a hobby.. I need a story teller.. I need a ... I need a...

Suddenly feeel myselves so random.

it's absolutely pointless.. I said NOTHING.

Good nite!

2009-10-20T20:34:00.001+01:00

239..

I was feeling rather tired and..not exactly down but rather.. uphappy about certain things and read this..I'm SHARING!! hehehe.. Sharing is caring.

An Indian guy named "Anantharaman Subbaraman" arrived at the New York airport and ended up waiting for his visa for about 2 hours for the authorities to call his name. He got fed up and went to them and asked why they haven't called his name yet. They said that they have been calling him for the last 2 hours as * * * * * * "Anotherman Superman"

Teacher: History is a very interesting subject. It tells you about what
had happened in the past.
Student: Please teacher, I don't think I want to study history.
Teacher: Why?
Student: There is no future in it.

Teacher: Ted, if your father has $10 and you ask him for $6, how much
would your father still have?
Ted: $10.
Teacher: You don't know maths.
Ted: You don't know my father!

Mother: David, come here.
David: Yes, mum?
Mother: You really disappoint me. Your results are getting worse.
David: But I will only get my report book tomorrow.
Mother: I know that. But I am going to Hong Kong tomorrow, so I am
scolding you now.

Father: Why did you fail your mathematics test?
Son: On Monday, teacher said 3+5=8
Father: So?
Son: On Tuesday, she said 4+4=8 And on Wednesday, she said 6+2=8.
If she can't make up her mind, how do I know the right answer?

A mother and son were doing dishes while the father and daughter were
watching TV in the living room. Suddenly, there was a loud crash of
breaking plates,
then complete silence. The daughter turned to look at her father.
Daughter: It's mummy!
Father: How do you know?
Daughter: She didn't say anything.

Girl: Do you love me?
Boy: Yes Dear
Girl: Would you die for me?
Boy: No, mine is undying love

Man: How old is your father?
Boy: As old as me
Man: How can that be?
Boy: He became a father only when I was born

Waiter: I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg.
Customer: Don't tell me your problems. Give me the menu card.

Teacher: Simon, your composition on "My Dog" is exactly the same as
your
brother's. Did u copy his?
Simon: No, teacher, it's the same dog!

Father: Your teacher says she finds it impossible to teach you
anything!
Son: That's why I say she's no good!

Teacher: "Where were u born?"
Student: " Singapore , Sir."
Teacher: "Which part?"
Student: "All of me, Sir."

A teacher was asking her class: "What is the difference between
'unlawful'
and 'illegal'?" Only one hand shot up.
"Ok, answer, Joan" said the teacher.
"'unlawful' is when u do something the law doesn't allow and 'illegal'
is
a sick eagle."

Teacher: "How come you do not comb your hair?"
Ah Kow: "No comb, Sir."
Teacher: "Use your dad's then."
Ah Kow: "No hair, Sir."

A boy came home from school with his exam results.
"What did u get?" asked his father.
"My marks are under water," said the boy.
"What do u mean 'under water'?"
"They are all below 'C' (sea) level"

Aren't they funny in an un-funny way??? xD Alteast it made me smile =)

2009-10-18T20:59:00.002+01:00

237..

It's 9 pm. My eyes are dry and itchy and I'm still watching..what else..

Someone said this to me earlier today.
" Sometimes it's ok to be human."

i am wondering.. if maybe I wasn't being a human. Am I not always human? I think I find it easier for me to trust people but not for everyone.

When something someone hurts you a few times, you tend to be aware of everything. It's called self defense. It's suppose to help us NOT get hurt. Wonder if it's mal-functioning now.

I just.. thought about something. Recently, or lets just say, the last.. 1weeks or more? I've been quite the tact-less. In the past I would've bitten my tongue rather than say those things but then now, it's as though my filter's broken or not switched on. i chosen let everything transparent.

I end up saying the wrong things at the wrong time. Yea, so i just had another SMALL blow up with my darling mother..What was it all about? The close one knew. Initially i'm not really that bothered what she said. I'm basically talking to myself. These are her exact words. Her final punch line of the argument.

" Your attitude sucks(in chinese), You CHANGED!"

You call this suck!? A daughter who never argue with you,who always take your words. It's sad you know. I really try to make it work but sometimes you've just got to accept that this is how i am and how i will always be. Something can only be real if it's real on both sides.

Don't understand?

Well giving can only be sincere if it's from the heart. Right? Of course i'm right. So, you can't force me to do something or use the guilt technic to make me feel bad in order to me do to whatever it is you want done. That's just getting me to do it but it doesn't mean i want to.

I realized it's become awkward and hard for me to interact with her. No, the talking is fine. But sometimes, you know i just want a understanding one.

* sigh *. I wish I could and that I didn't feel so restrained and have this need to control all my actions. I want to do what I want but I can't. I know what comes first. I always feel.. as though I can't.

I never change. The only thing different is I'd lost my patient.

2009-10-13T21:49:00.002+01:00

232..

什么是快乐？
我说： ‘简单就是快乐！’

我喜欢简单不喜欢动脑筋当然该用的时候我还是会用 XD 。。
一碗白粥加酱油。。
一杯美碌加苏打饼。。
一块面包加牛油。。
这些不起眼的东西可以让我很有满足感。。

有时候我在想为什么那些人那么爱‘想’
就好像我本来想过马路但我想了一下因为太多车就不想过
五分钟后我过了不幸的我的钱包这时候被人扒去了
该来的总是会来该遇上的始终会遇上
很多时候其实不需要想那么多横竖都是做了再算吧！
很多朋友都说我单纯
好听一点叫单纯或呆难听一点就叫无知对吧？XD

刚才有个朋友告诉我我们的其中一个朋友变质了
变得爱慕虚荣变得没信用了不快乐为了买名牌享受更好的物质而去做一些没天没夜的工作荒废了学业
这位朋友也因为她的性格转变而开始远离她怀疑她所说的话
我不知道这是不是事实我也不想雾里看花
不管是不是我想说的是。。

给朋友A 既然已经是好朋友了为什么还要去想他们所说过的话做过的事
想太多只会让你们的关系更恶劣我也不是叫你盲目相信她但这个时候你是不是更应该想怎样把她的功课搞好？拉她一把？
我从来不会怀疑或去多想朋友们告诉我的事
虽然有时候会制造很多笑话但至少那是快乐的
虽然偶尔会被骗但至少经历过下一次就会学聪明了
也许很多人会不认同我但我就觉得既然你会怀疑他说的话那‘朋友’的意义是什么？

给朋友B 我们有段时候没见面了只是偶尔在MSN谈天
我的确有发现你变了但那是你的自由你快乐就好
很想告诉你的是有时候光鲜亮丽的外表并不代表一切或是你过得很好
最重要是你现在快乐吗？如果是我无话可说
不要强求一些遥不可及的东西不要过度和别人比较
有时候身边最简单的东西反而会让你更快乐
想想你最后一次笑得最开心是什么时候了？
送你一句话：知足长乐，简单就是快乐！
希望你过得很好 =)

2009-10-08T15:25:00.001+01:00

227..

for you ~ ♥ ♥

David Cook- I don't want to miss a thing

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
When every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure.

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'cause I'd miss you, babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.
'cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.

Lying close to you, feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
And then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'cause I'd miss you, babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.
'cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
I just wanna be with you, right here with you,
Just like this
I just wanna hold you close
And feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment for all the rest of time
Yeah, yeah, yeah

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'cause I'd miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.
'cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'cause I'd miss you, babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.
'cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe,
And I don't wanna miss a thing.

Don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
And I don't wanna miss a thing

...

2009-10-06T21:45:00.003+01:00

225..

转眼间十月了。。
来了英国快要九个月了。。
渡过了春天夏天来到了秋天。。
今年的夏天有点不一样。。
打了人生的第一份工。。
尝试了一个人的夏天。。
还有我恋爱了！

很想告诉他
虽然我们刚开始不久
虽然我们认识不久
虽然我们了解不深
可是就因为是你
我以后的春天夏天秋天冬天都会是你的
我会努力建筑我们的城堡
因为我现在的快乐是你给我的。。

突然觉得自己是幸运的
遇见你是幸福的快乐的
以后的事情我不知道
但至少这一刻我是快乐的。。
谢谢你 =)

♥ ♥

2009-09-24T11:03:00.002+01:00

213....

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

張學友-愛是永恆

王菀之, 張學友 - 我真的受傷了

張學友 - 愛如潮水

張學友 - 愛我別走

张学友- 听海

张学友 - 眼泪

小城大事 - 張學友 2007

天黑黑 - 張學友 2007

歌神!♥♥♥♥

2009-09-23T14:41:00.002+01:00

212..

最近我身边有一个情况
有一位男性朋友爱上了一个女生
但这个女生拒他于千里之外
他不确定这个女生是不是幸福
也不知道情敌在那里
其实我想告诉我这个朋友
在这个地球上有很多人不懂得去爱
只懂得找一段感情说服自己沉浸在爱里而已
相爱和相处是个很大的学问
但我们不能质疑爱
我们只能质疑关系和缘分的不足而不是爱本身
总有一天你会等到你爱的人打开大门
祝你幸福！

2009-09-18T21:20:00.002+01:00

207..

不舒服很不舒服
这几天都睡得不是很好
咳得很厉害很冷
最近也很早就起身
七早八早头就很重什么事都不想做
谢谢珍妹的批葩膏喉咙有舒服了一点
我才发现原来听‘情歌’对头痛真的有帮助 <3

最近最近最近发生了一些连我自己都不敢相信的事情
由陌生变朋友朋友变无话不谈的朋友无话不谈的朋友变习惯的朋友
习惯了差不多每晚都和你聊天
习惯了你的沟通方式
习惯是一个很恐怖的家伙
就像毒药一旦染上了它你会不自禁的想它做它
没了它会觉得浑身不自在
习惯习惯就是习惯那然后呢？
我不知道也不想去猜
因为我所谓的第六感或直觉每次都会把我载带失望的最顶端
所以我相信你所对我说的一切
以后我不知道但现在我可以告诉你
你已经是我的习惯了。

梁靜茹-情歌

2009-09-08T22:21:00.002+01:00

197..

又是一个宁静的夜晚..
想起刚才和老妈的对话..
也想起在地铁站和珍妹的对话..
我一直在埋怨他的不是
她一直在安慰我..谢了 T T

她问了我： ‘你还喜欢他吗？，如果他现在和你表明你会再接受吗？’
我竟然竟然犹豫了！！
却实..有动摇了..
时间一天一天的过..我们的感情也随着时间一点一点淡掉了..
我真的不想在去想不想在付出
为什么只有我在努力
我知道你很内向可是这不是借口
我已经暗示得很明显了为什么你还收不到还是你知道可是不想表示
我不是在计较我也知道这些东西不能衡量
明明两个人都有感觉为什么我们会搞到这样
我要和你在一起不是因为某某人或某某原因..
我只是单纯的想和你在一起..为什么就是不能？
我不需要很华丽的晚餐我也不再乎你贵或贫..
你的条件真的很好那又怎样你知道我要的不是这些！
我曾经还以为是我的问题或是你觉得我条件不够好
想了很多很多..
才发现原来我们最大的问题是沟通..
身边的朋友都告诉我叫我忍叫我不要放弃
不是我要这样是你让我这样

算了算了真的算了！这一次真的算了！
你喜欢怎样就怎样继续维持你那贵公子形象
我不会在去理
在这一刻我下定决心 - 真的算了！
这是最后一次给你的话..
你收到也好收不到更好..就当一切没发生过！
那些无知的告白信和那所谓的无限期我会统统把它丢进大海真的算了!!
很讨厌为什么要搞到自己不开心我真的很失败..
决定了！
不要在我做了决定才来后悔，一切都太迟了！
是你没有珍惜..
我只能说我们没缘分..

梁靜茹 - 別再為他流淚

再见！

2009-09-02T21:26:00.002+01:00

191..

when you walk away..
I count the steps that you take..
Do you see how much i need you..

When you'ree gone..
my heart are missing you..
The face that i came to know is missing too..
The words i need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok..

I miss you.

Obsessive no? Quite.

But u know what? I think to be loved this way, to have the person like you to the point of obsession is what every person wants,right? To have that special person see only you in the world. That's what you call love.. Or so. Hmmmmmmm..

I miss you.

It keeps ringing in your head that you want to see the other person each time you're apart..

You've never feel this way before. Everything you do, no matter what makes your mind back to that special person. At least for the first 20 30 days or so..

We were made for each other..I know we were.. You know we were..Or mayb we both are wrong..

I miss you.

DOn't make this worst. You've already gone and made me mad.
I'm sick and tired of your face.

That's break up for you.

I am missing somebody else but not YOU anymore. Trust me.

2009-08-30T22:26:00.002+01:00

188..

hmm..

HE used to be my favorite . Take note of the past tense, " used ".
It no longer is. Sadly. I mean, HE used to be my everything my hapiness. I was happy.

I'm not saying I'm unhappy but.. things have been better.

I'm afraid he will read this or my previous post and know it's about him.
I'm even more afraid he will read this and NOT know it's about him.

I think I can relate.
That's unhealthy.

This is not a good day.
Maybe I'll be able to appreciate it later.
Just, not right now.

ms erica will you bloody stop crying already.

oh ya..happpppppppy 52th biirthday to MALAYSIA!

nite!

2009-08-29T21:47:00.002+01:00

187..

Today was so uneventful.. Kinda anyways. Hahahaha.. Woke up only around close to 9 am. Found evelyn is awake and was sorta shocked. I mean, woah!! she woke up earlier than me!! hahahaha..AMAzazazazazing ~.. hehe.

Was literally stuck to the computer the whole morning. omg.. i have no life!! What was i doing? Facebooking & Plurking.. * * It's so addictive larhh. AIyo.. and see, because of facebook i have been neglecting my blog somewhat.

Well, was online and.. well, online. Was having weird random conversations about blood, Jlo , relationships, online stuff, bla bla bla..

I had dinner with evelyn at Nandos,Westfield. Odd huh? hahaha.. I haven't been there for a month? whatevar la..

so there we go .. thats all i can think of at that time . so yeah looks like im done here ''cheers''

Nite!!

2009-08-25T22:09:00.003+01:00

183..

Sometimes,I wish someone would call me up with no apparently reason besides just wanting to hear my voice...

I was randomly googling emo stuff and..
I just realized. Everything's pretty beautiful when you look at it the right way..
I'm glad because ms rachel is recovering gradually from the pain..well done gal!

and i found another nice song...

一个人生活
演唱:林凡

叶子在窗外轻轻爷
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞
我想我可以习惯一个人生活

我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
感觉如果要走谁能说 no

我想我可以习惯一个人生活

在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
爱情是个梦而我睡过头

Anyways, I'm sleeeeepy now but still neeed to sit through another 2 hour to finish up 'Million Star' XD

ciaoz~!

2009-08-24T20:05:00.001+01:00

tank -如果我变成回忆
作词:陈信延施人诚
作曲:tank

累了照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的
就停止了

听着呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆
退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆
终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发
蹒跚牵着你看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你
我不怪你

快乐什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的
最舍不得

如果我变成回忆
最怕我太不争气
顽固地赖在空气
霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力
把我忘记

2009-08-24T19:44:00.002+01:00

182...

当他不爱你的时候，无论过去他是否爱过后来却忘了，又或者是否是从未爱过。
当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，他的心便不会记得你。虽然他知道你深爱他，但他宁可选择装作是不知道。

当他不爱你的时候，请不要在你不开心，或者是遇到麻烦去打搅他。他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。
也许他会在接到你的电话的时候，淡淡地安慰你几句，却也仅此而已。

当他不爱你的时候，请不要与他讲你的琐事，也许此刻，你不过是希望让彼此更熟悉一些。只是，他却无暇更是没有兴趣去了解你，你的生活，你的过去，你的长处短处与他又何干?即使讲了。他也很快会忘记的，就如他忘记你的生日，你的地址，你的电话一样。没有爱，于是你注定挤不进他的生命。哪怕只是一个很小很小的角落。

当他不爱你的时候，请不要在他的面前流眼泪，不要在生病的时候告诉他。他无法给予你照顾和关心。至多是同情一下，要记得，只有爱自己的人，才可以真正的去疼惜你。而不是，旁观的同情。怜悯。

请不要再为他流泪！

2009-08-23T22:58:00.002+01:00

181..

You know those moments when you feeel you're on top of the world and nothing can go wrong? Well, it normally doesn't last very long. Guess we should just live in and for the moment. Savour it because once it's gone, you can't get it back. Nobody wants to live with regrets. It's heartbreaking that I've got some recently.

I’m so stupid. I’m such an open book. I’m such an idiot. =( Right now I’m so tickled with laughter and swirling thoughts that I feeel like laughing and crying at the same time. It’s like a voolcano erupt inside me and I’m going crazy. Breathe breathe breathe..

I don’t know what’s going on with me. I’m like so confused about everything. I’m such an idiot. I don’t know why I’m typing this nonsense up but I am. Oh well. Hrmp.. maybe I do know why. It’s because I can’t keep all these weird feelings bottled up or I’ll go crazy. I tend to be like that.. I should just shut up and go to bed..

I just wanted to update. Fingers were itchy.

btw..i miss you..yes,i really do.

Good nite!

2009-08-19T01:21:00.002+01:00

177..

夜深人静时总会想很多事情。。

今天心情好多了想起昨天真的很难受哭了
对不起大家让你们担心了我没事了
我始终相信我是坚强的
人总是要往前走哭过了就收拾心情
我不会永远是个失败者我会努力更加努力！

刚刚收到他的讯息..
很意外的我竟然没有很高兴我是怎么了？
渐渐地我发现我们的话题越来越少了问来问去都是那几句
就连昨天发生的事我竟然没有要告诉他。。
我们是不是淡了？
距离果然是个考验..
我是不是应该做些什么补救？
等了快要半年了始终还是没动静。。。这意味着什么？是时候放弃了吗？
要来的始终会来是我的就是..不是强求也没用..
还是那两个字 '算了！'
很累不想知道也不想去想

还是去睡觉发个梦总比在这里想东想西
晚安！

2009-08-17T23:28:00.002+01:00

176..

今天是场恶梦..
一大早起来，以为有好消息可是却是一场空欢喜..
很失望真的很失望..
打了电话给妈妈..原以为可以很冷静地告诉她..可是我却哭了..
很放肆地哭..突然她说好久没听到我哭了，这样的我令她非常担心..对不起！
在大家眼中，家人甚至我自己都认为我是个很坚强独立开朗的..
直到今天我发现我不是我不是我想象中的那样坚强.
我没有因为成绩或任何挫折哭过..可是这一次我哭了..
我哭不是因为考不好而是因为我浪费了他们的金钱因为我认为我尽了能力..
或也许是我期望太高了..也许是我自信心太强了..
现在我终于明白什么是痛苦流泪..
刚刚塔巴士回家时忍不住流泪..很丢脸但是我就是控制不了..
突然想了很多事情..原来一个人生活在国外真的是不容易..
当伤心难过时要学会自己擦眼泪自己承担一切..毕不了业就不用回家..
我真的不想再让父母失望虽然他们口口声声说不要紧..可是我知道我令他们失望..
所以我告诉我自己这是我的第一次也会是我的最后一次..

真的很对不起！

2009-08-13T22:11:00.004+01:00

172th...

I'm here to say.......HAPPPPPPPY LEFT HANDED DAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!

http://www.lefthandersday.com

i love being a lefty! actually i am not a borned lefty. It is a long story. The summary is when i was 5,because of my Unfortunate-ness,my sis fall down top on me!and therefore..my RIGHT hand broke. Because i need to do my homework,need to do everything...so my mum taught me do everything with left hand FOR TEMPORARY. but when my right hand recovered she just reliased, i cant change back. and so...i become a lefty! tats it. END story. XD

Thanks darling sis =)

Good nite!

2009-08-11T21:40:00.002+01:00

170th..Hurt!!!

Okay this is silly. I NEVER wanted to be a mum. Ok fine, maybe I wouldn't mind in the future but I don't want to cook. I don't belong in the kitchen. Like seriously.

It's 945pm now. For almost 30 minutes, I was in the kitchen peeling this 6 garlicss! OMG. After like 15 minutes, I suddenly realized that my right hand fingers was starting to hurt. I thought it was nothing and continued.

Well you guess what after that? I ACCIDENTLY CUT MY FINGER, caused unknown! OMG. I have a plaster on my finger now. It feels really hot, like you can feel the blood boiling and the pulse. Pretty cool in a way but.. it hurts lah. Then it also feels like you've burnt your fingers and about 3 layers of skin came off.

And now I can't even do anything properly anymore. I DO NOT WANT TO BE A KITCHEN-like MOM. I don't belong there. Guess I'll have to marry a dude who can cook. hehehe. And in today's world, I guess that is possible..? hmmmmmm.. XD

Just for the record, I'm NOT emo as many of you may think.
I'll be perfectly fine once I've got enough sleep and intoxicated myself a bit. XD

Bye!

2009-08-09T20:16:00.002+01:00

168th..

今天的我闷闷的没有原因..就是闷闷的
一早起来就对着电脑到现在..无所事事的又过了一天..
刚刚在FB看到了一些中学的旧照片突然想起了些事情..一些不愉快的..

我曾经有过一段很美好的中学回忆，很好的一班姐妹..
她们是我曾经最好最好的朋友一起去补习一起逃课一起去吹风一起谈心事一起做过很多疯狂的事
我曾经还认为我们的友情是永远不会变的..
直到中五我们的友情变了..
就因为我做错了一件事就一件
那件事的确是我的错但里面有很多误会为什么你们宁愿相信别人都不肯在听我一次..
那时我多么渴望你们会回头再跟我说话也许给我一个机会道歉或什么的..但是你们没有..我得到的却是你们的冷眼..没错是我自己一手摧毁的..是我活该..
从此我们再也没有说话了也就因为这样我们四五年或十几年的姐妹感情就这样完了..

从那天起我终于知道原来所谓的友情是那么的脆弱
我也从此相信没有永远的好朋友所谓的好朋友只是个代名词告诉别人我们是认识的
当真正发生事情时她们却远离你
所以一直到现在我都没办法很真心的去交一个朋友因为我怕到最后换来的又是一样的结果

但无论如何我都要想你们说声 '对不起' 一句真心的 '对不起'.. 这是我欠你们的一句话.
但我也要说声 '谢谢' 因为你们我才知道原来朋友是这样的..
原来人是不能犯错的一旦错了就永远没机会弥补了..

朋友，祝你们友谊万岁

2009-08-07T20:44:00.002+01:00

[ The 167th day in London - Sunnie day ]

刚刚一个小时前，有个朋友失恋了..
她告诉我说她男朋友变心了..
他们的问题是第三者的出现..
虽然我们只是MSN聊天但我可以感觉到她的伤心和不甘心
她说不管怎么样她都会把那个男人枪回来
可是我想说即使你把他枪了回来那又怎样..你和他会开心吗？
就因为你的不甘心面子问题所以硬把他留在你身边何必呢？
他已经变心了. 为什么就不能祝福他们..
我知道要你的是时间..就让时间冲淡一切..
是你的就是你的不是你的就不是. 强求也没用..不要在作些愚蠢的事情了..
看开点吧..也许下一个会更好 =)

2009-08-06T20:28:00.013+01:00

[ The 166th day in London - Rainie day ]

嗨！好久没没来了..这已经是我的 166th post 了，也刚好是我来伦敦的166th day..
不知不觉我来了会要半年了..这其中当然发生了不少事情.有高兴的，不高兴的..
还记得当初要来时总是担心会一个人..但我很庆兴，认识了一班好友..谢谢你们的陪伴 =)

至于家人，我真的很想念..
虽然天天通电话，但还是很想念..
以前的我总是觉得他们是罗唆的，烦厌的..
可是现在我才发现他们才是最重要的..

至于我自己，我也不知道..就懂吃喝玩乐..
考试成绩下星期就会懂..其实我也知道我会得什么了 =)
这两个月真的很忙..考完试的第三天就跑去了意大利十天..
意大利真是个很美很古老的地方..真的很喜欢..

梵帝刚

斗兽场

boon.erica.wai.evelyn. 斗兽场

许愿池

Pompey

斜搭 . Pisa

米兰

威尼斯

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=100500&id=521032230
http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?id=521032230#/album.php?aid=100507&id=521032230
http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=100343&id=521032230

从意大利回来后就不停的找工作..刚刚开始真的很用心去找.到后来就没心了..
但最后也拿到了一份..虽然很累但总好过在家无所事事 XD
朋友一个个回马来西亚了，就剩我和瑞切尔..还好有她陪我 =)
参加了一个朋友的毕业典礼..刹那间觉得我真的应该好好读书了！我也要戴四方帽 =P

我与瑞切尔

后来也和一班朋友去了一个很漂亮的岛 Isle of wight..那里真的很舒服很舒服很想在去一次..

青青草原~~~

Erica

erica . leon

erica . ann . rachel

US

漂亮吧！

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/profile.php?id=521032230&v=photos&ref=profile

就这样我的假期就过了3/4 XD 好啦是时候停了....Bye!!!

2009-05-28T17:55:00.002+01:00

[The 78th day in London - *craving for BAK ZHANG dayl! ]

端午节又到了~今年的端午节有点不一样..
一个人身在国外突然觉得好孤单..
刚刚和家人聊天觉得他们都没变..老爸还是一样自恋，老妈还是一副认真脸，老姐还是傻傻的，老弟还是老爱发脾气！哈哈！
也刚刚看了瑞尔思的照片..虽然粽子包的不好看但就觉得很温馨！宝文芬娜你们就好啦~

最近每个人都忙考试......真的祝你们..好运！
你们也祝我好运吧~

2009-05-10T21:25:00.003+01:00

[ The 78th day in London - HOT! ]

I would like to take this opportunity to say thank you to you. .

Because you, I learned ABC
Because you, I have a happy childhood
Because you, I have learned all

Thank you for taking care of me for twenty-one years
Thank you for allowing me the freedom to fly
Thank you for allowing me to think I was the best
Thank you for allowing me to achieve my dream
Thank you for letting me know that my mother was a great

I hope you always happy
I hope you always healthy

Thank you, and the endless hope that you will be blessed!

We love you =)

HAPPIIEE MOTHER DAYYYYYYYYYYYY! =D

2009-05-06T20:40:00.002+01:00

[ The 74th day in London - Windy ]

1. the rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. each player answer the question bout themselves
3. at the end of the post the player then tags 5 ppl and post their names then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and ask them to play

Starting time: 940pm.

Name: Min fang . erica . MD.. the list goes on =)
Sisters: One
Brothers: One
Shoe Size: 6 or 7
Height: 160cm =(
Where do u live : currently in London.
Favourite drinks: Starbucks GreenTea Frapp!
Favourite breakfast: Bread.

Have u ever..
been on the plane: Yea.
swam in the ocean: Yup, but I don't like the sea all that much. I always think a jellyfish is creeping up behind me to sting me! HAHA..yeah, paranoia,tell me about it.
fallen asleep at skool: a couple.. times.. maybe more.. def. more.=p
broken some one's heart: me? hahaha..
fell off ur chair: hrmp..no i guess~
saved email: nop. My inbox always empty.

what is in ur room like: normal room loh..
what right beside u: my body cream and hp.
what is the last thing you ate: Tomyam Rice Noodles.

Ever had...
chicken pox: Nop!
sore throat: Just recovered from one.
stitches: YEAHHH!
broken nose: nope. But it's so FLAT!!

do u...
believe in love at first sight: Obviously not. You're insane to.
like picnics: If it's a windy evening, then sure!

who was/were..
the last person you danced with: * thinks *.. tak da =)
last made u smile: my mom!hahah..

Talk to someone u like: Sure! I hearts my Plurk mate~ They're so random.
kissed anyone: Today? Nop.
get sick: Just recovered.

Now...
talk to an ex: Nop.
miss someone: yes.. odd eh? * sigh *.
eat: err.. nothing?
is there a person who is on ur mind now: Yup.

Do u have any siblings?
You asked me that up there, LOSER.

Do u smile often?
YEa.

Do u like ur hand writing?
it's okay.

Are ur toe nails painted?
Nope.

Whose bed other than urs you rather sleep in?
My grandma's.

What colour shirt are u wearing now?
Pink!

What were u doin at 7.oopm yesterday?
plurking..? perhaps? no, I think I was eating. Probably bathing.. or something.

When did u last cry?
Juz 2 days ago.

Are u a friendly person?
Not really. That's bad..

Where is the person u feeling for right now?
Wait, what? The person I'm feeling for? o.O I'm stumped. How can I be feeling for the person?

Did u hold hands with the person who means anything to you today?
no!

Do u sleep with the tv on?
No TV here.but i sleeeep wit my lappie on. I just mute it and fall asleep. haha..

What are u doin right now?
doing tag lo!

Have you crawled through a window?
I'm sure you have too.

Can you handle the truth?
Nope. I'm a loser. but i'm cool. * smiles *

Are you too forgiving?
sometimes.

Are you closer to your mum or father?
Mummy!

Who was the last person you cried infront of?
myself.

5 THINGS I WAS DOIN IN 10 YEARS AGO - I was.. 11 yrs old!
1. Getting angry with people playing with my hair
2. learning paino
3. playing catching
4. study so hard for UPSR
5. timetable SO FULL!

5 THINGS ON MY TO-DO LIST
1. Graduate in 2 years time!
2. Become a pretty women~
3. Must get myself a present when i am 21th!
4. learn how to cook! lol..
5. bring someone home..lol..

5 THINGS I WOULD DO IF I WERE A BILLIONAIRE
1. Buy a nice car!
2. Get a big house and 3 maids to clean it. HAHA!
3. Buy my hubby anything his heart desires.
4. Give my kids the best education possible
5. and.. open a TEDDY shop!

5 OF MY BAD HABITS
1. procrastination
2. pride
3. impulsivity
4. nail biting
5. Stubborn

5 places i lived in:
1.Terengganu
2. Ampang
3. SUnway
4. London
5. -

5 JOBS I'VE HAD
NONE T T..

ending time: 1001pm

I tag..
If you're name is somewhere up there then you're tagged lah =)

2009-05-04T20:05:00.002+01:00

[ The 72th day in London - Windy ]

这两个礼拜我都过得非常平静因为我们两都在忙..
我们就快一个月没联络了..
你是真的很忙而我是想尽办法让我自己很忙..
我真的很努力想办法不去想..我一直告诉自己考试要到了..读书读书读书！
直到前三天我终于忍不住了我发了讯息给你..
你回我说 '你在忙'..我很伟大的说：'那你去忙吧！'
就这样我们又恢复了平静..
当时的我愣住了..那一种感觉又回来了..

曾经有很多朋友说我是一个非常开朗的女孩
当时的我也大方承认我是..
但现在我发现我不是了..
刚才班上有个朋友说我像个会走路的洋娃娃..
我竟然一点点开心也没有..
换做是以前的我我会开心得睡不着..
也许你看到我是笑着的但其实不是那么一回是..

这两天我一直不断的重复的问我自己..我是不是应该就这样算了..
我又不是没人要为何要搞到自己那样纳闷不开心！
要我放弃我做不到..
要打电话给你我又怕打扰你
写了信又删掉..
有时我真的很讨厌我自己那么懦弱！
我不能再让自己想些有的没的..

我决定了..我会把那封信放回去
至于你会不会看到那就随缘
我给我们两一个期限
截止日期是我的生日那天
由今天算起总共是208天..
在这几个月里我会不去想它..
如果直到那天你都还没表示我就知道是时候了..

我真的很希望我的21岁生日会带给我好运..
我也希望我会得到一份很特别的礼物..

今年的生日也许会是我最快乐的一次..
或也许会是我最不想记得的一次..

2009-04-30T23:08:00.001+01:00

Taylorswift - Love Story

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

2009-04-30T21:09:00.012+01:00

[ The 68th day in London - Sunnie day : pre-labour day ]

Wanted to post something inspiration that i've been thinking about for the past few days but then..I decided against it..HA!Maybe for another time..It's almost 10pm. right now..I don't wanna sleep coz if i do, i'll wake up with a hang over. lol. Silly me :P

I'm just so annoyed. Why? Because NONE of YOU are online right now to keep me company and entertain me..In the end I'm left all alone to stare at the computer screen and imagine..well,whatevr my cooooooooky imagination can come up with.. juz ignore me~

Actually,i am looking for my ginna picture..anyways, my goodness, you woudn't believe what i was a CUTE AND photogenic kid..NEVER look at the camera in every single photo..Hahahahaa..But it kinda brought back lot of memories..Was thinking back and u know, just reminiscing..Oh! And i was so amused by these few photos..Coz it was a family photo(including my grandpa),we were all gathered around.Think it was Chinese New YEar..

Ahahahahaa.. kinda blurr but i'll post it and see how it looks. ~ thanks CP for the pic :D

1989

In between 1998-2000..i miss him so much..'How are you?'

Sista Ruby & Cousins Jusim & Julean

Fiona & Ruby

Fiona & Erica [ In btw 1992 -1995 ]

Fiona & Erica [ 2009 ]

Erica . Fiona . Ruby . MinTon [ in btw 1992-1995]

Ruby . Erica . Fiona . Jyin [1993]

Fiona . Jyin . Erica . Ruby [ 2008 ]

*hugs*

2009-04-29T22:46:00.002+01:00

[ The 67th day in London - Sunnie day ]

突然找到这收歌..
他写实了我的心情..

突然很想念你..

王光良&江美琪 - 對你有感覺

我曾深刻体会对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你给我安慰
看你失落的脸又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈

眼角的泪它给过谁
伤透了心也无所谓
我会愿意静静地陪在你身边

如果说爱已不可为
那我宁愿藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你(你)有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退被爱包围谁犯规都狼狈
谁能解围让一切完美

怎么会开始对你(你)有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我拥抱瞬间不后悔这暧昧
星光唯美把爱放心里面
把爱放心里面
把爱放心里面
把爱放心里面

2009-04-25T23:31:00.006+01:00

[ The 63th day in London - Big Sun day ]

oh would you look at that. it's another person's birthday again.
Happy Birthday, JO!
Though I haven't seen much of you and probably don't know what's going on with you recently, hope you have a good one. Loves from the other side :) *hugs*

I tagged along with my cousin who is studying in Oxford U and Suan~. It was juz a simple outing and since we have nothing to do..so we decided to watch movie and go for dinner later..and we chosen 'Let the Right One In'.

Let the Right One In

It is a 2004 vampire fiction novel by Swedish writer John Ajvide Lindqvist. The story centers on the relationship between a 12-year-old boy, Oskar,and a 200-year-old vampire child,Eli,of indeterminate gender.YA! 2 ginna kissed! It was like WTH when i saw it..

And the most unbelievable is the book was a bestseller in the author's home country of Sweden and has been translated into Danish, German, Russian and English in 2007! A Swedish language film version by the same name, directed by Tomas Alfredson, was released in 2008 to widespread critical acclaim. An English language remake, to be directed by Matt Reeves, is scheduled for release in 2010.

Ok Sounds good rite..I'm usually okay with horror flicks and the gore but somehow, this movie got to me and freaked me out.I'm not kidding okay.I shouldnt watch the movie.And I would've walked out but I just HAD to be sitting there coz of my 10pounds!Hoorahhh for me.And I was so sleepy..I hated the show.

I was so traumatized after the show.. * shakes head *. Confirm, I really can't watch RUSSIAN horror flicks no more.Instead of being able to watch a nice, unSCARY, unTRAUMATIZING movie, like I Love you man,or maybe just cartoon,I just HAD to watch tat stupid russian movie!

OH YA the happiest thing is..i ate Ben & Jerry ~ strawberry cheesecake..i heart it~~ :D

B&J - Strawberry cheesecake,MUST TRY!

And the B&J 's fans :D *ta da*

Ms. Erica :D

2009-04-22T22:59:00.003+01:00

[ The 60th day in London - Sunnie day ]

hey ya! Happy 2month Anniversarrrrrry ya ^ ^ *firework*

I got something to tell..

I was rushing to get on school on time because I woke up late today =) yes..again =D Well,while rushing,I had wear my lens be4 i went out..they felt weird once I put them on but since I was rushing,I ignored them and off I went to school.

I still ended up late I think. i reached school around..erm..945? HAHAHAHA.. There goes my effort. =D

Well,I suddenly realized I couldn't focus on my work without getting dizzy and a slight headache.I was like WHAT?!Then I stopped and thought for a while.I solved the mystery when I remembered my power.I put on the wrong side!WHich means I was wearing the wrong sides.Like I'm wearing the Right lens on the left eye and Left lens on the right eye.The lucky thing is i always bring my lense case along when i am out! ^ ^

Hahaha.. Stupid yet clever. For a moment there,to imagine we're the future of tomorrow. ~~~~~~~

I should go to bed. But the washing machinee stil running..BAJU AKU BILA BOLEH SIAP AAAAAAA!

OH YA..tml class cancelled!!!! ~(8)

saw tis pic in faceboook..lol!

Ms. Vege erica @ rachel's kitchen,Pourthsmouth.

* waiting waiting waiting waiting *

2009-04-19T20:26:00.004+01:00

[ The 57th day in London - Sunny day wit rainie Mood ]

I. am. so. very. bored.
I wanna type an emo post after this. Why? NO REASON. I just wanna do it Haih.

Could you live with yourself after everyone has seen through you..The transparent you..No secrets.. shadows to hide out.. Nothing...Just you.. and you..

Stand infront of the mirror.. Look at the person staring right back at you..Could you meet those eyes?If you could,what did you seee then? Sadness? Loneliness? Pain? Suffering? Happy with what you see?

take out layers of make-up, eyeshadow, eyeliner, lipgloss and everything unnatural about u.. Behind that fake identity and unreal personality, that's the real you.. If you were that unmasked person for just an hour, could you bear it? Allowing the world to see who you really are for the first time after a long a while..will you?

When your friends see you.. what would happen then? Will they ignore you?Call you lame for being the way you are? Would they treat you like a can of finished COKE?Maybe if you're lucky they will only be verbally hurt you.. Sometimes,yourself assuraance drops so lowit's as though it could never recover.. What then?run far awaaaay?

But in actually fact,who are we? Again.. I can't answer who i am. *suddenly remind me about michael wong's song - 'i am who i am'*

Though i may say,I'm min fang.So? Who's she? A thousand minfang out there..Another nobody?She isn't worth anything..What does she know?Nothing. sleeping perhaps?She's not cool. I don't like her.. She's lame.. What a bitch. Useless. Hopeless. Fake. Unreal. In denial. Not good enough for anything..isn't she?

I don't think i'm pretty enuf.. slim enuf.. tall enuf.. smart enuf.. fat enuf.. short enuf.. lame enuf.. cool enuf.. mature enuf.. enuf enuf enuf..we're never enuf!If we live by the world's standards.. we're never enuf.. It's judgement from others about you.. No, i'm not saying it's bad to get a second opinion but it's living by those opinions that make it very unheallthy..

If you know what i'm talking about,i pray the next time you see somebody that reminds you of this..You heelp them out. Before it's too late for them. before they lose that hope and will to live.. Save them.. Rescue them. Just because nobody did it for you, doesn't mean you have to do it to others.. Remember that.. There's hope. The heart of the matter, is the matter of the heart ..

So the next time you wonder who you are, don't wonder so long..Just say with confidence like i will. I'll say i'm min fang. I am a somebody. Someone who has feelings too. Who cares.. who feels.. who listens.. who dreams.. who wants.. i'm just like you! I'm going to live for me!not anyone else.

Didcha got me?

2009-04-15T21:29:00.009+01:00

[ The 53th day in London - Sunniiie day : VERY HOT! ]

Throughout the day I come up with so many things I want to blog about. However, by the end of the day, I forget them all. Don't you just hate it when that happens? CIS!

oh well~the porthsmouth-ians just went back yesterday and i am going to Porthsmouth for my weekends~hahaha! OH YA! both of them left thing here!SEEEE..still wan say me DOI =P

btw..I'm happy with myself today. Well, sort of.
I'd like to congratulate myself on CLEANING MY ROOM! * grin * HAHA! k k..back to topic..in the last few days..we ate a lot..tea a lot..crappeed a lot..bought a lot and watched 2 movies : Fast and Furious 4 & Knowing. Ntg much about Fast n furious 4,it is all about the police story..not much race screen =( the previous 1 nicer..muscle man all around~ =)

then come to Knowing..=.=''''hey gals,can you tell I chose it? hahaha.. COZ WE WERE TOO FREE..DIE DIE also wan to choose 1 movie to watch =.=''sampai call cp to choose for us..hahaha!Starring Nicolas Cage! Mmmmm.. he's getting older =( I'd like to say how much I liked Lucinda!I mean, you have to like her.She gives off the whole mysterious thing..Awesome!then,the whole appearance of Nicolas Cage was..SO DISAPPOINTING!Keep show his very KAN CHEONG FACE..behtahan betul!* switching out of fan girl mode *.

and what the heck was up with the black rocks lah?!It was freaky that the guy kept appearing out of nowhere then dissapearing and stare at them..i am so pening!I thought EE was the cousin of ET.Seriously!The woman, Diana,was so annoying...GO AWAY LA..I wanted to slap her..The alien's ending was so stupid!OMG! Couldn't they come up with a better one?Overall, besides the endingand the women, it wasn't that bad but.. Eeeepp! The ending really killed it..yer!

Omg.. it's 945pm right now.. But no one on the Plurk!Actually I know why..all busying with their assignment..i am the free-est 1!!!ah!! Okay this is like.. a really amusing thing okay...=(

I am so bored that I began googling people's names. Don't ask me why,I just was.I tried mine and came up with nothing because minfang is used so often, you don't get much. ANYWAYS, I tried Faye, I tried Vitto, I tried this.. and that.. and after many many names..yeah. HAHAHA.. so random.. and was webcam wit my lovesssss 1 juz now..MISS THEM A LOT AAAAAAAAAAAA! how are ya doing there =( I love yet hate the internet...

Grandma + Small gal ..peace V~

Mummy..She shout at me after i showed her this DON-CARE face..haha!

THe Lame-ness ppl- SUn-glass Ad :D

THe weirdo - Mr Yap & Ms Yap :)

Happieeee Easter ppl!

i feel so random-ness..

nite!

2009-04-07T14:48:00.003+01:00

[ The 45th in London - Sunniiiiie day ~ ]

I feel like a turkey..OMG!I need to do some exercise..the last few days i went to Leeds & York..crazily sinful foods =D I'm going crazy not to mention high on sugar rushes! o.O

Anyways, recently..when I'm super bored,you know what I do?no~~~not sleeeeping~Hehehe..it's really amusing..I go on facebook and click on Bathroom wall..I found this application a couple of weeks ago..it's the BOMB!!you'll find really funny/awesome post..And some pretty/sweet stuff too..

Like I just read one about this person asking people for several ways how to make her parents think she's crazy...lol..
The answers are hilarious! you should go read it if you have the time. if not, go add the application and do your own exploring. hehehee..

Anyways,besides that,i'm SUPER DUPER CRAZILY BORED. and though I know I should be doing some work,I'm just not in the mood too~..

Don't I have a bright future. lol..

Folks =D [ City wall,York ]

[ is watching Perfect Cut 1..superb nice aaaarrr!i wan go for cosmetic surgery!! =D ]

2009-04-01T20:33:00.006+01:00

[ The 38th day in London - Sunny day Happy April Fools~ ]

This is amazing.The first time ever that I have abslutely nothing (well,not entirely but nothing interesting enough..) to post and blog about...

This is bad.. bad.. super uberly badddddddddddddddddd...

I guess I should go do some work. Mop the floor?? clean up the Fridge?haha!

was webcam-ing wit my bro..~so missssssssssssssssssss his fattttt face =P

=) =D

The Pepsi Ad XD

=R & =S

=D =P

btw, Happy April Fools everyone!!!! XD

it ain't no joke lah okay! lol..

2009-03-28T22:43:00.008Z

[ The 35th day in London - Earth Hour . Rainy day ]

Hello ppl~ didcha switched off ur light at 830pm for one hour? yea i did~XD

I went out this morning. Got back about an hour ago =D

Today the portsmouth-ian : ah boon and cp gan came to London ,for 2 purposes : 1st,go Harrod hav a look at the Malaysia Festival Fair.2nd,head to London Eye support Earth Hour. What i though of the Malaysia Festival Fair was.hrmp..got lot of Malaysia FOOD,Introdution of Malaysia's place..bla bla bla..BUT that is only a small corner about BATIK! = ="' the only valuable thing to see is OUR QUEEN's signature.SHE WAS IN D HARROD!haha..

Later we went walking around after dinner..IN D RAIN..went to Piccadily Circus then London Eye juz to support the Earth Hour and see the London Eye without LIGHT..BUT THAT WAS SO DISAPPOINTING LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!Coz according to CP,the London Eye will switch off and the BIG BEN will not(everyone of us believe that it wont) So we arrived there about half an hour ealier and only focused @ d london eye.So u know what happend later? The Big Ben SWITCHED OFF THE LIGHT and The London Eye DOES NOT! We missed!CIS !

Lalala.. so we ended up celebrating Earth Hour at the Picaddily Circus.Lol,a bit sad lar but it was okay.Atleast we were out or something.. * trying to be positive here.. =P

So thats it for the day..=)
*i will upload the pic very soon!*

Nite!

2009-03-27T21:41:00.006Z

[The 34th day in London , wiiiiiiindy day ]

today i went to Greenwich,the National Maritime Museum and The Royal Observatory wit Ah Suan =) Didcha know where is Greenwich ..And u know what is so special there? i bet most of you donno =P..nvm~ actually the day before today i donno also =) let me tell you then~

According to Wiki..Greenwich is a district in south-east London, England and it is so special because it is Prime Meridian.The Prime Meridian is the meridian(line of longitude) at which longitude is defined to be 0°.and it known as the International Meridian or Greenwich Meridian.

Then,TheGreenwich Observatory was set up to study means of fixing longitude and recommended to their governments that Greenwich should be adopted as the prime meridian.The decision was by no means unanimous.Over the following years the various governments adopted Greenwich officially as prime meridian.

So u know GTM?it is mean solar time,with midday defined as the at the time at which the sun crosses the Greenwich Meridian, 0 degrees longitude.Sounds very GEO aaa....BEHTAHAN!

ok back here..Later then scientists found that,they needed a more exact measurement of a second,and brought in Universal Co-ordinated Time(UTC).UTC has officially replaced GMT,but for all but the most,most people still refer to GMT.UTC is co-ordinated from Paris, although it is based on Greenwich,not Paris time.DON ASK ME WHY.

So.......In the courtyard of the Observatory, and just outside, are brass strips set in the ground and walls marking the exact site of the line of the meridian.It is therefore possible to stand astride the line,with a foot in each hemisphere : a favourite tourist occupation..i am tourist?? nop~ i am the student :D

The Clock Set in the wall of Observatory

The line marker outside the Courtyard

Find out more pic here : http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/album.php?aid=84007&id=521032230

anyways, that's about it. =D See, i'm updating!!

oh ya! i bought BEN & JERRY..BANANA flavour...it is so AMAZING! It sweeped all my un-happy thing away~~ :D bravo!

My new good fren :D

nah...u deserved a kiss ~ XD

Nite!

2009-03-26T15:58:00.006Z

[ The 33th day in London . Rainy Day ]

The weather coming home today matched my mood.It rained.I smiled.

You may skip it if you don't want me to dampen your sunny day good mood.I promise I won't hold it against you at all.Besides,even I would have to think twice about reading it if I wasn't me.Seriously..

I'm sad.I'm upset.I'm on the verge of tears.
I am not happy I am not happy I am not happy!!!!!!

It's been a really rough day.
I'm so tired.
Quite drained really.
But it wasn't all bad.
I had fun.
A good time and it was nice to know someone cared.
At least I'm not worth nothing.

I'm sitting in my room with the lappie on my lap with the itunes switched to the radio channel and it's playing light music ( Your classiscal choice ).How depressing is that? Very.

Snap out of it!I've got the weekend to look forward too!I've so much freedom now!why is it I am unable to enjoy that?Or at least,I don't seem too happy about it? Besides,i juz discussed about summer trip to Paris wit suan when we were having lunch.I should at least be more cheerful about it.

But then, I just seem unable to smile. Something happend. Even if I do,I obviously don't mean it. Even if I'm cheerful or laughy-like,can't you just sense how much of a show it is I'm putting on?

Sorry, I'm beginning to cross over into that drama queen side.And I'm still out of cheese so,that makes me sad too. No cheese and crackers.DULL.

I shouldn't allow myself to sink so low to such stages.It's unhealthy and nobody wants to be around a sad,depressing,emo person.So,nobody wants to be around me.Just as well maybe.

I wish someone would call me up sometime with no apparently reason besides just wanting to hear my voice.

Mayb Mayb Maybe deep down inside me, i'm just a weak person.

2009-03-25T20:21:00.004Z

[The 32th day in London]

I wonder sometimes.How do we even begin to learn a language? What makes us ask about something,wanting to gain more knowledge about a certain topic,to breach that stupidity to all knowing-ness.Goshhhhhh, there I go again inventing my own vocabulary.>.<

I like being a nightowl O.o I know it's not healthy and of course I do enjoy the moments of SHUT eye that I am able to have each night though I may not always fufill the required 8 hours =P I don't have a healthy sleeping pattern. I hope you do though.

But as I was saying,I adore the way I'm able to actually hear myself think without having other people distrupt my thoughts...
I contemplate many things,but more often than not,I wonder bout the importaance and relativaty of my thoughts to life..To other people: Do you have such questions?Such problems?Such interests?Such thoughts?Or am I the only weirdooo on the face of the earth that goes through everyday struggles but make them up to be the biggest problems in my life and..if they go unsolved, would result in the end of the world. Dooms day & emo day. I HATE YESTERDAY. ( u know w h y )

Anyways,I've started my midnight excavations again and I'm revelling in the joy it brings me.I do enjoy it because it's MY time.Time with myself.To reflect.To think.To consider.To decide.To do watevar i wan. Sometimes i just like to being alone.

I've also noticed that the sound of my fingers grazing over the keyboard and applying bit pressure that would magically make a post appear on the screen where the it has indicated..Oddlly enough,it calms me down.A feeling of serenity would be able to envelope me and carry me off to the place where I had last left my thoughts.I LOVE BLOGGING. (L)

I just like it. Though I was looking back at some photographs from the past year or two,It made me miss everyone a lot.

I might see you around in school and you're there, but because of our hectic lives and mayb selfish-ness,we don't have the time or rather we don see the importance of making time to slow down,take a breather and ask the person beside you. " How are you doing?" Not just asking for the sake of conversation or small talk.but to really find out if they're okay.

I read a book and it says : "We're all amazing actors and actresses.Able to wear a mask and hide the pain and burdens on our shoulders that we force our fragile selves to carry alone." yea,is true.Sometimes,maybe we could help each other along the road and depend a little on someone else for a while.Just until we get our footing again.But i never learn from my past lesson.

See,I told you the nocturnal being me..can only think and consider things like a human being in times where the area that I live in is silent..alone.. and still..I like it.

OHYA..HAPPY ONE MONTH & 4 DAYS ANNIVERSARY! =)

nite!

2009-03-15T20:44:00.003Z

Yes, hello again people. It’s ME!! * confetti is releaased from the ceiling and trumpets and music resounds in the room * Oh sorry, was enjoying the moment there.=P Hehe..i am gila-ing wit my new hp.. Yea, syok sendiri.. AGAIN. Can’t believe it’s SUNDAY today. I mean, so fast and the week’s gone.tml hav to wake up early again = = Sheeshh..

I went to Asda today (FYI : Asda is a supermarket which is like our Giant) actually ntg special but like for the first time, I actually went out wit Koffi -my housemate who i juz know him for one week!!! WOOHOOO!! So cool wei! Hahaha..

and it comes to lunch time!we went to a desert shop coz we were not really hungry. I ordered the yogurt cheesecake and he ordered a classical cheese cake; not very impressive and how can the desert shop NOT have strawberry ICE-CREAM?!!!!!!!! Omg. I wanted the banana split but there wasn’t any strawberry and I didn’t like chocolate, so it would’ve turned out to be 3 vanillas! Eeeee.. sien man.I could hardly enjoy the cake but he did. Only thing I could do was imagine it is secret recipe's yogurt cheese cake!~ = = after that another housemate came..really didn’t do much after that. Ended up talking..talking and talking..^^

Came home, stoned for quite a while before watching 'Bangkok Dangerous'..

Bangkok dangerous

* sigh *.. Bitching session with TONsssssssS of spoilers.Skip if you plan on watching it..Skip if you don't want to hear me bitch about the show. Skip.. well, just skip it. lol.

I mean, the whole inflatuation with the deaf girl was so stupid!Unrelated and totally a waste of cinema tape!AND,if she's bloody deaf,how the heck do you expect her to HEAR the beat of the music to dance?! DID YOU NOT THINK OF THAT?! The only reason I'm so bothered by the show is because I was expecting so much moreeeee..=(

Then the action is plain..I can honestly say I thought Fury was 10 times better.And there story line isn't very nice at all.Wait,is there even a storyline?It's so weak! It's so frustrating to watch.I know,can you sense the annoyance? It's.. crazy!

Besides the movie, I guess it was a good day. Wait, it is a good day.

Nite!

2009-03-09T19:47:00.002Z

You have to type the 1st thing thatcomes to mind whenever you hear these things.You can’t think and go back and change your answers.

1. Beer: brother~
2. McDonald's: ApplePie!
3. Relationships: A poison
4. Purple: Floower!
5. Power Rangers: pink ranger ^^
6. Weed: pot
7. Steroids: Jon and Kingsley. lol..
8. Cartoons: Power Puff gal!
9. The President: Obama

I..
1)...am obsessed with: books!
2)...can't live without: the internet. I think to a certain extend, i'm addicted =D
3)...am proud of: wat i am doing =)
4)...really need to: get use to the WAAATERRRRRRRRR!
5)...don't get why: i love vanness!
6)...relax by: singing~~(8)
7)...am excited about: vanness =D!

My..
1)...fridge usually contains: everything but not FISH.. !
2)...teenage years were: awesome to the end.
3)...family is: lovely ~ (L)
4)...biggest regret: not expressing myself all those times.
5)...friends don't understand why: I'm such a doi sometimes =(
6)...attitude to exercise: be semangated about it!! yEAH!

8 random facts about myself
1. I like teddy.
Ever since I was a little girl, i loved teddy. I have a lot of teddy at home. Pictures.Named.Everything teddy!!! I love teddy ~(L)!

2. I'm in love with music.
I think music is a way of life. I love them! And I just love listening at them over and over again for hours and hours on end.

3. If you really get to know me, I'm crazily love vanness.
Hahaha. I know this isn't something I should say here coz.. i really love him~lol!

4. I don't like durian.
I have several friends who love it so much! and I can't understand how that is possible. I can't eat coz it's smell makes me feel sick..

5. I dream of own a teddy house.
Yeah! It's always been my dream..HAHAHA.Yeah, that's a secret dream of mine but i guess it ain't so secret anymore.=)

6. I don't know how to be girly.
You know you go out with a whole bunch of girls and they just seem to be able to get into the whole girly role which I fail miserably at. I'm not a tomboy, but neither am I one of those girls who speak laugh loudly..freak out over the latest fashion or sit like a boy =D I just CANNOT. No matter how hard I try. T T

7. I really don't mean to be doi.
I really don't! I try my best not to be but yet, I just come off as being it.=(

8. I love hugs.
It may not seem apparent to a lot ( if not all ) people but i absolutely LOVE hugs. So yeah, if you see me, HUG me. Hehehhee..

DONE!!
So i tag..

1. Wong Wai
2. CP
3. Ivan
4.Slash
5. Li jing
6. Nick

2009-03-09T19:18:00.004Z

About probably 2 sunday ago ( or so..? ), i reached London! Yeahhhh!

erm ntg much to say..

basically..

the weather is COLD..
the guy is muscular..^^
the gal is tall..and i am the short one =(
the main dishes are BURGER and FRIES..
the water here is suckxxxx....
the ppl like coffee and coke...

Yeeshhhhhhh ~.. and I can't believe my mum actually MISS me so much!She call me every alternate day asking the same question..== normally it would be the kid who call the mother right,but in my situation,it's my mum calling..lol!How will i ever be an independant gal like this?!but honestly..i am missing her too..and everyone in M'sia..OH GOSH..wat am i saying!i juz came here for 2 week! and i'm missing them..see!how useless am i! *slap me * haha!!

I've nothing really much to tell you.. but i've got some random pictures in my facebook that i've posted. It's beats reading anything, don't you think? =D

my facebook : http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/profile.php?id=521032230&ref=profile

e r i c a [090309]

2009-02-20T15:15:00.002Z

CP's Tag =)

001. Name → Yap Min Fang
002. Nickname(s) → erica . ah fang . ah phang . big eye monster . alient . bee phang
004. Zodiac sign → sagistaarius
005. Male or female → Femaale
006. Elementary → Tadika moral wat...cant remember dy.. :D
007. Middle School → SJK Chung Hwa Wei Sin
008. High School → SMK Chung Hwa Wei Sin
009. College School ->HELP University College
010. Hair color → currently in dark brown
011. Long or short → short
012. Loud or Quiet →quiet :P
013. Sweats or Jeans → sweats
014. Phone or Camera → Phone
015. Health freak → Try to be healthy alwayss
016. Drink or Smoke? → Drink but no smoke.
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → yes juz happend las few days ago!
018. Eat or Drink → Drink.
019. Piercings → Ears...
020. Tattoos → nop but i wish to has one :(

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Form 3.
024. First best friend → jia yu. but lost contact dy T T
025. First award → 6 years old? cant remmeber dy la!
026. First crush → Donno.
027. First pet → i hav no pet.
028. First big vacation → Thailand (same as cp :D)tat time i was 4 years old.
030. First big birthday → stadard 6 coz i got 7As in UPSR..haha!

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → shabu shabu @ oneU
050. Drinking → water
052. I'm about to → think where to go tml :)
053. Listening to → 'Shu Yu' by Fish Leong
054. Plans for today → going to sleeeeep soon.
055. Waiting for → somebody call :D

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Yes.
059. Want to get married? → Yes.
060. Careers in mind → someone present me a superb big teddy :D

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes.
070. Shorter or taller? → Taller.
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic!
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → none of them. i wan nice attitude :)
074. Sensitive or loud→ both also tak suka but Loud is better than sensitive.
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → ==

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → contacts.
081. Ran away from home → No.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → Yes, Pepper Spray.
083. Killed somebody → of course nopee!
084. Broken someone's heart → nop.
85. Been arrested →NO.
087. Cried when someone died → Yeah.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → sometimes.
090. Miracles → YES.
091. Love at first sight → nop.
092. Heaven → yea wit a lot of teddy.
093. Santa Claus → NO
094. Tooth Fairy → NO
095. Kiss on the first date → no.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → yes i think :)
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → yes.
099. Do you believe in God → yes.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 20 people→ ?

Jus do it if u like :)

2009-02-15T12:59:00.003Z

Tagged by Nobody =)
1. Take a recent picture of yourself or take a picture right now..
2. Don’t change your clothes, just take a picture..
3. Post that picture with NO editing..
4. Post the picture with these instruction

Dark circle,eye beg,pimples and superb dry lips..Natural enuf? ~_~

1.What's your ambition?
A Charted Accountant, or a very successful business women.

2.What do u like the most about your siblings?
okiie, i have two siblings a sister and a brother. Second i am. Age gap is 2 years and 3 years. Not really big gap rite :D
So, sister is a good listener when i got problem, brother is a good entertainer when i am BORED. LOLS.

3.Are u looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
erm still looking. maybe not for the right one and right time.

4.Do you think you have enough confidence?
Sometimes, over confidence ( too much syok sendiri dy!) haha!i should be more humble perhaps :)

5.How many babies you want?
i love babies~ but i prefer only 2.

6.Do you wanna play this tag?
yea..i'm kinda free recently..it is another way to kill my time! so yeah!!

7.What is your goal for this year(2009)?
complete 6 papers within a year either. Totally quit clubbing (i know sure u are saying 'oh erica..pls!'), which is impossible considering that i am flying off to london which is a drinker's heaven!lol..And most of all, meet new friends! 100 new? Think is possible? yea of course, i am a v friendly person ^&^

8. Do you think you're clever?
hrmpp...i think not in terms of academics :D i am only above average. i guess :0

9.What's a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u?(list 10)
no one is perfect my dear..but at least my him must Loves to smile, Laughs at my Jokes, play sport, Able to give me space when needed, Not materialistic, Accepts the lifestyle i am undergoing, Loves cuddling, Loves dressing up plainly,loves teddy, loves cakes, and most of all, Loves Me. :D

10.Do u ever wonder where you would end up after you die?
don't really wanna think about that right now.

11.What are your bad habits?
o h a lot! I drink (yeah i know, but used to be excessively) I love junk food. I am Lazy with my works. I am choosy. I don like fish. I only will study a week before the exam. I don like to touch housework.

12. Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself?
My bad Habits, the way i talk, and my height! lol

13. State a random fact about yourself?
I am a superb teddy fans.

14.What does flying means to you?
f r e e d o m

15.What do you crave for the most currently?
LV neverfull beg!!! (dad u should know wat to do ya ^^)

16.Describe the person that tagged you in 7 words.
Brothaaa, Understanding, Funny, Not-lame,Gayish :D

17.Are you currently single?
Sadly, yeshh.

18.What is in your mind now?
waiting for friend to call yumcha after his work with the gang ..

19. Do you believe in fate?
Everything happens for a reason. There is a reason why you meet and when you meet a person.
Its called fate, and its written, but up to you to change it.

20.Who do you want to be 10 years later.
i'll be 31, i'll be somebody's mom..haha!
JUST KIDDINGGGGGGGGGG

i wanna be famous, popular and known. I want people to know who i am. for the Do's and Don'ts in mylife. i know, i am ambitious. XD

Tag 5 people??
TOOOO lazy to do that..
whoever wanna do it. go on! Its a way to voice out and let people know more about you.

Nite!

2009-02-14T11:27:00.022Z

random pic random post

Happy belated Chinese New Year, Everyone!!!

Even if you're chinese or not. Hehehe..

That was just a random thought in my head. =D I don't really know wat to post,well, not entirely anyways. ~...

U S without g.fiona =(

Grandma's child

grandma's grandchild

The pretty women- aunty mimi . aunty chan . my mom aunty yap =)

The Yap's family =)

me n her ^^

Cousins - Nick . Jusim . Erica . Julean

Sherlyn the cutie pie ^

Bro the gila pie @

Gila Babi >.<

Katrina . Erica

Muacksss~

Smile ~~ :D

Me wit the funny face =D

Lion dance in D house

The Lion's head

Sista . me

Khim . erica . lynn . katrina

Erica . Danny

E R I C A :D

happy new year~

2009-02-14T10:17:00.004Z

[St. Valentino]

Bet you thought I was going to relate the story about Saint Valentino to you.Well,you're wrong!XD Because I'm not.I'm rajin,but not that.Haha..Maybe tomorrow,tomorrow,tomorrow and tomorrow =) We'll see how my mood is, okay? hehehe..

Anywhere...

Happy Valentine's Day!!

May we ( me ) single people enjoy the day meant to treasure the special person in your like; a couple.How nice~ Hahaha..

No worries, I have nothing against Valentine's day yet.

2009-01-17T14:41:00.003Z

I was watching ' The Color Purple ' yesterday.

It's an old film. Dealing with african americans in the olden days where women weren't respected, treated as dirt and property. I thoroughly enjooyed it. Seriously!!
It's starring Whoopi Goldberg. She's awesome!! Don't you think?

Believe it or not, that's her. Can you even begin to imagine how old this film is? I mean, she's so young her!! Woahhhhh.

Then here's another shocker. Guess who else was in the film? Oprah Winfrey.Shocker no? Hehehe.. She looks quite different though there are some similarities but I didn't think I'd stumble over her in such a film, moreover playing a role that she did. She played Sofia, this brash aggressive woman.

I was super tired because I stayed up till 5.30 am. watching the prestige..haha! I planned to sleep but then I stumbled onto this show and was hooked. I sat on the couch for 2 and a half hours glued to this show.
Not to mention is was quite a tear jeerker though i thought the music they matched with the sad moments was a bit off. Also, Shug Avery sort of in a way stole the show from Miss Celie..Overall, it's a good show. go watch!
anywhere...It was based on the book with the same title by Alice Walker...

erm so..good nite
btw..i need a hug..can i?? =D

2009-01-10T14:06:00.004Z

Yup. It's the 10th of Jan and it's my bro - Minton bday so.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Aha~.. he's finally 18! =D Happy Sweet eightteeeen!! Hahaha..[2008]

The Botak.NS Look! hahaha!! [2009]

hope you have a blast in ur camp =D..

2009-01-08T14:24:00.002Z

The latest Vanness :D

Oh my darling ~ oh my darling ~~ (8)

HE still loook so MAN!

HAHA! good nite~

2009-01-08T13:29:00.007Z

This is for all of u who loves BEACh~

What do u think inside tis building? :D

Ta da~~~~~

It's Ocean Dome,which located @ Japan!!

The roof is retractable.

When the roof is closed,u still get blue sky and puffy white clouds~yummy~

And the special thing is,Ocean Dome has its own flame-spitting volcano,crushed 'white mable sand'.and it also boast the worlds lagest retractable roof,proving a permanently blue sky!

So imagine where the sky is always blue..it's never too hot or cold,the water isnt filled wit pollution and the surf is always perfect..

BUT BUT BUT the entrance fees is US$50 per person,which seems especially expensive given tat there is a free,natural beach only 300metres away :D

Ill

2009-01-06T13:50:00.004Z

The title actually says ill but it looks like lll or 111. Whichever.

Anyways, I think i might be getting sick. u know why?? COZ I AM TOOOOO FREE!!!!!!I'm having that before-you-fall-sick-feeling right now want to throw up ..haha!I'm also really cold right now. Not to mention i think i'm getting warm like fever warm. My mood's been lousy the entire day and.. I'm feeling DIZZY!!

Dammit lah. I hate but yet love falling sick. It's a complicated love hate relationship. Go figure.. Right now, i feel like dying..

I went to bed yesterday at 2 am. which ain't that late for me. But for some odd reason, my mind was swimming with nonsensical thoughts. I was for once, thinking about my study stuff. And then came the part where I'm feeling all crappy about myself.

And then I realize I have no mood to do anything. I don't know how I manage to fall asleep in the end. I was squirming around in my bed like there was no tomorrow. For a moment there i thought I might never fall asleep.

I'm feeling so goal-less right now. So useless. I need some activity in my life.i am astro on demand-ing everyday now! Projects projects projects. YEAHHH!! I need projects so I can throw myself helplessly into it and think, breath and live projects. Hahaha. That's how I usually become when I'm involved in something. God, now I sound like some obsessed workaholic.

There goes my life for you ~....
And I hate HOTMAIL! I hate YAHOO! I hate every frigging thing because my net's acting up and NOT allowing me to log into any of them. wtf..

found tis pic in my folder..nice rite..i wish to hold the sun too :D

G'Nite

2009-01-01T14:00:00.001Z

Happy New Year to all!!

May 2009 be even better than 2008. A new year, a new chapter of our life and most of all, a step closer to legal-ness for me. Hahahhaa.. not that it matters much.

Anywhere, here's to an awesome year with plenty of erica-fullness. XD

HAPPPPIIIEEEE NEEEWWWW YEEEAAAAAR!

2008-12-31T13:09:00.002Z

The last post of the year. Farewell 2008. You've been awesome. =D

And would anyone like to know how I spent my last day of the year? It was most interesting really. Hahaha..

I met up with Jia yi at around 5plus.ya..i went to jog wit her.
After that we headed over to jia yi's house to help fix some tables. Yup, you read that correctly.hehehe.. I'm awesome!! I was so cool you know. With the drill and the hammers and the screws and the wooden plugs. * grins * It was a totally new experience for me. Hahaha..

After that I got home, took a shower, had dinner wit cousin and updating my blog to welcome in the new year. * swt *. Whaddaheck man. lol.. but yea, that was my new year. So.. hope you guys spent your time better than i did!! hehehe..

happy bday to the earth ~.. happie 2009!

2008-12-29T12:52:00.002Z

Stop . Breath

Then think.

When was the last time you just sat in front of your computer,alone without a care in the world? Without the nagging of your parents,assignments,emotional rollercooasters and other petty things that seem to cloud up your mind.Sometimes,it gets so bad it haunts you in your sleep.

So,when was the last time you had an emo song on and you just stopped.Breathed. Blinked. And allowed your mind to be at ease and just relax and dream.

Whatever happened to dreams? They seem so scarce in today's world,dreams are more often than not,thought of silly and unreachable. But if the people of the old never dreamt, we would not have anything we have today. Technology, comes out from dreams, faith and will.

So what was your latest dream? That is, if you have one.

2008-12-28T14:30:00.002Z

['I will be back . I will miss you!']

Someone told me yesterday if I was depressed. Surprised? So Was I. That is, until now. My initial reaction tat was to deny that I am depressed.I know,in todays world,the word depress carries a heavier meaning than it's actual meaning.It means feeling sad or gloommiiness,both YA.

You know,to be honest,I cannot handle this.I was not made for this.I cant even take in the fact that everyone seems to be LEAVING and Im being left behind without hving a feeling of sadness over me.Sure its not true you tell me,so why does it feel like that is exactly what is happening right now?

What a waay to begin the yeaar,right?It started with aaron,zizi,the HELP-ians,uncle Si,now its Joey and next it’s going to be Christine and me myself.Its really happening.“ Australia,India and London are eating up all of our friends!”. They have not been just a friend,they are really awesome people that I’ve had the privilleged to meet and share a bond.that means more to me than you may know.

I wish they didnt have to go.Why cant they just stay here with me?With us!Or maybe we could all just choose the same U? Or hide in their luggage and go along with them.I’d be willing to do it any day.Or mayb i think too much.

Im not making much sense anymore. Joeys going to be leaving in 41 hours to India. Seems long right? Wrong. Thats not even 2 days.sori darling i cant send u to airport but u know,i am happy with that.I know,if i was there,my tears will just keep rolling down.I really dunno when is the day we can shopping together in Pyramid again.So I wish u luck here.

After that Christine might be going off in Jan. Then i am going to go off in Feb too.sounds enjoy and interesting rite.I be starting my new life there. That is a huge blow for me. Sure i am not alone there,the HELP-ians all there,but then, its not the same is it now? I’m going to be so lost there.I scare.

Why can't I be the FIRST one leaving instead of the LAST one ?

I wish i can see your silly face the next day, not having to wait for a holiday to meet up again.

2008-12-28T09:45:00.006Z

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2008-12-27T03:46:00.009Z

[25.12.08] . [26.12.08]

Blessed Christmas ya'all. Handphone was going crazy with all the messages beeping it. I guess so were all of yours. Hahaha.. It was nice. Merrry X-mas and Buddha LOVE me!! XD

Today was spent with the family. I woke up late, slept in then later woke up and got things ready for tonights dinner for my bro early birthday celebration coz he going to NS tomorrow T T We took our own sweet time and did last minute shopping too when I went out to GIANT with my bro.

was rushing and running up and down trying to finish all the preparation. Gosh, it was horrid. Rush rush rush rush rush!! Then mum's shrieking at me to help her with the food and.. mad house. Hahahha.

People start arriving at around 11.30am + or so. i don't know. Family's there. Aunt, Uncle, Grandma,and my family. We have nasi minyak and berrani(spelling betul kah??!!)and.. mmmmmmmmmm, it's basically all good. Hehehee..We're all happily eating XD

and so..that was Christmas for me. Hahaha..:D

Happpieeeee biiirthdaaaay bro!

sorrriiiee la..i know the cake is SMALLLLLLL = ='''

Mummy . Bro

Happpieeee Birrrthdaaay gal :D

Two Cuttiiiie Piiiie :D

-All by Nikon D40 -

and..happy boxing day people ~... !

2008-12-12T13:57:00.002Z

I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO BORED!!

SOMEONE DATE ME PLS!!

erm yea..i found tis in Nick's blog..quite interesting..It is not a tag but i still doing it and tag ppl..itchy me~ =D

okay..lets start~

A for Amelia

1. Do you love this person?
Yesh :D
2. Is this person your enemy?
noooooo :D
3. Would you kiss this person?
erm..i think no.. :D

B for Ben

1. What do you really think of this person?
caring,loving and a funny one too :D
2. What's his favourite color?
i donnno..he is my sista bf..
3. Ever danced with him?
nop..

C for chun hao (WW)

1. Do you have a crush on this person?
i think...no bah..haha..
2. Have you had a crush on this person?
i said..'no bah' =P ~.~
3. How old is he?
20 :D

D for Darren

1. How long have you know him?
hmmz..few months? :D
2. Biggest regret?
he said wanna buy me a teddy but i said NO =_=
3. Do you hate this person?
nop :P

E for Eric :P

1. Have you met his parents?
Yeah :D
2. Worst thing about this person?
talkative :P
3. Best thing about this person?
humor person and a good listener :D

F for Fiona

1. Have you ever date this person?
NO! hahaha..
2.When is the last time you saw her?
sept..be4 she leave to UK :(
3.Do you go to school with him?
Yeahh..foundation year (HELP)

G for Gemonn

1. Is he a good listener?
not sure :P
2. Have you ever lied to make this person feel better?
erm..yea :P
3. Is this person good looking?
YES!

H for hui lynnn (lyna)

1. What grade is she in?
errrr..doing diploma :D
2. Is she your friend?
yeah..since form3.
3.Ever done something illegal with this person?
Ponteng class?? haha :X

I for ivanK

1. What is this person's favourite food?
he eats anything..i guess :)
2. How did you know him?
MSN :P
3. Do you trust him?
y not..:D

J for jasonW

1. Does he have any siblings?
yup..one sista and bro
2. Do you know his favourtite song?
any song presented by JJ lim..rite?
3. What would you do if he confess he/she liked you?
erm..'are u kidding??!!'

K for Katrina

1. When did you two first meet?
Form 1.
2. How did you meet?
in school :P
3. Ever danced with this person?
yes..she can dance very well :)

L for Li jing (DOI)

1. What would you do if you had a crush on this person?
erm..i guess i wont hav crush wit tis gal :P
2. Do you like her as a friend?
YES..she is a JOKER
3. Would you go to Disneyland with this person?
yes..if she sponsor me :P

M for Mabel

1. Is this person older than you?
no..same wit me
2.Is this person single?
yes..but i think is not available :D
3. How many times do you talk to her in a week?
ermm..din talk much..but we CHAT a lot in msn ..:D

N for Nick

1. Is this person your boy/girlfriend?
no..he is my cousin :D
2. Have you seen this person cry?
erm..yea?!
3. Do you know this person's middle name?
haha! yan NI ke...rite?

O for OsimC:P

1. Are you related?
nop..juz a fren of mine :P
2. Could you live with this person?
i donnnno..
3. What school does he go to?
he studying in TARC..

P for poh boooon

1. Have you ever gone to mall with this person?
YES~ :D
2. How about a sleepover with her?
Nope.
3.Does this person have a job?
a student..

Q for qila (NS fren)

1. Does he have crush on you?
Nop.
2. Would you hug this person?
yes..
3. Is this person your friend?
ya..she is one of my ns fren..a cute gal..

R for ryan

1. Have you ever heard this person sing?
YES..TERRIBLE!
2. Do you think this person will repost this?
no..he don blog.
3. When does this person look best?
When he is playing sport :D

S for simo

1. Is this person taller than you?
yes..he is 178cm :P
2. Do you enjoy spending time with him?
yea..haha..do u? :P
3. Do he live close to you?
he is staying in aus now :P

T for tiffany?

1. Would you do anything for her?
depends.
2. Have you been to her house?
Nope...
3. Where does he live?
subang jaya :P

U for umbrella?? :D

V for Vin?

1. Does he have crush on you?
Nopee...
2. Would you hug this person?
no..
3. Is this person your friend?
ya.....

W for wayne?

1. Is this person noisy or quiet?
Noisy.. :D
2. Describe this person.
Friendly,talkative,outgoing :D
3. What colour eyes does this person have?
er..black?

X for xixi (xiao ying)

1. Why are you friends with her?
cuz she is cute ! :P.
2. Have you ever gone anywhere with her?
yea! :D
3. What is one thing you will change about her?
her waste-money pattern..haha!

Y for yousheng

1. Does this person wear make-up?
he is a GUY
2. Does this person play instruments?
Nope :P
3. What is her favourite sport?
definitely BADMINTON :P

Z for zizi (zhi qian)

1. Does this person have MSN?
sure.
2. Have you gone out with her?
YES! :D
3. When will you see this person next?
i donnnnno.. :(

i tagg:
Li jing
Fiona
Chun Hao
Ivan
Jonathan

G'nite~

2008-12-11T13:48:00.002Z

A Big thanks to Ivan =)

i think i did tis be4..but nvm since i am SO FREEEEEEEEEE now..juz do it~(8)

RULE ONE:
People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE TWO:
Tag FIVE people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

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ONE.
If your lover betrayed you, how will you react?
- slap him!

TWO.
If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
- get smarter =P

THREE.
Whose butt would you like to kick?
- joey?? ^^

FOUR.
What is ur plan for the next 5 years?
- complete my course and get a goood job =D

FIVE.
will u marry a poor man?
- yea but he MUS is a hardworking man..i prefer a hardworking man than a rich 1

SIX.
Would you fall in love with your best friend??
- yea..y not~

SEVEN.
How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- i donnnno..

EIGHT.
If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- juz b fren la...wat to do..

NINE.
If you were to act with someone, who would it be? Your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
- vanness wu!!! lolz XD

TEN.
Would you invite your Ex bf/gf to your wedding?
- depends on d situation..

ELEVEN.
How would you see yourself in ten years time?
- erm..mayb look different wit now..mayb u will see my husband holding me and i holding my two cutie pie XD

TWELVE.
How is ur idea family look likes?
- erm..a lovely husband and ONLY two child..=D

THIRTEEN.
What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
- he always has his own mind..do his own thing..don care wat ppl said..=P

FOURTEEN.
Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- i juz wan a blissful and happppy family..can?

FIFTEEN.
What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
- stonned on d bed =P

SIXTEEN.
Would you give all in a relationship?
- depends.

SEVENTEEN.
If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- it will never happen.

EIGHTEEN.
Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- i will definitely forgive and try to forget.

NINETEEN.
List your biggest turn on and turn off.
- erm wat is tis a?

TWENTY.
List 5 people to tag
-WW
-CP
-Doi
-Ken
-winson

2008-12-11T07:59:00.003Z

First day of holidays begin TODAY! Fantastical.
Can you smell that?
That's the smell of holidays!

juz reaxhed kl.All I did was get some well-deserved-and-much-needed sleep. Yeah, I slept from 11pm yesterday till 9pm. Heavenly~!

So i BAKED yesterday...!i shall relate to you my experience with baking.. ALONE!! Yes, ERICA YAP is trying her very best to domesticate herself over the holidays. hahaha.. i'm awesome, i know!! =D

but the story of this cake-full experience is super funny. For one, i only woke up at 12 plus.. close to 1 pm. really.. haha..

Washed up then asked the maid brought out the pans, and stuff. I took out the ingredients, began mixing them and then only then did i realize i had NO BUTTER! Well, i did but not enough.So i got to ask my aunty drive to buy butter.. duh.. A little while more into mixing the batter, i realize i have NO.. EGGS!! omg, what sort of stupid house has no eggs?!! * sigh *.. i guess mine? hahaha..

Well, rather than get my aunty to drive out again..i just drive to the shops nearby and getting some.Sounds simple right? Well, as soon as i drive,it starts raining. I have to drive back in,coz my car DON HAV UMBRELLA!so i get there and then i go looking for eggs. Ehhhhhh.. so complicated larh. So many eggs. ok,being me i just pick up the most convinient one in a pack(n the cheapest one!)hahaha..

I'm so super sucky at all these kinda things.HAHAHA..Anyways, i get back home, finish mixing everything and then i throw it into the oven. Set it for half an hour and here i am.

Then every 15 minutes i'm going to check on it..then it dawns on me..I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO CHECK?!!So..thank God my aunty was beside me..hehehe..she told me to poke a tester stick in and if it's still sticky, it means it's not ready and stuff. haha.. yea i know lah juz forget only!!

Anyways, i waited and waited.. and it's still like not done.So,the genius me though i'd take it out and figured it should be done.And when i do,it HANCURS!!omg..Yea,it hancured,but anyways,i put it back into the pan and sent it back in.haha!Hopefully, it won't hancur next time. Or maybe i'm suppose to let it cool then it won't.. hancur? o.O

I'm such a noob at this..(FYI:my dad is a chef)!konon-nya!Hahahhaa..Anyways, i'm being kept company by my maggi mee that i just cooked.Atleast that can't go wrong. hahahaa..

OKay.. it's done. maybe you might not wanna look at it. It ain't pretty.. seriously.

it looks like.......**** rite...i know T T

2008-12-06T15:21:00.002Z

Is rainy day agaiiin..

I'm not feeling very good about myself right now as of this moment..I don't really know why. I should be fine but then.. I have this urge. This odd urge.. to do something.. That I shouldn't.

I AM FEELING SO RAWRRR!!

Why rawr? Because it's something I can't exxplain.No,I'm not emo but also not happy-happy-joy-joy.I don't really know what's bugging me.I wish someone could tell me.

You know,I honestly want to try cutting myself.No,not just cut myself but try cutting my wrist. I want to know what's the big deal.i always see it from TV..it seems so chikek!What's so special?Will I somehow find my purpose in life right before my end?hahaha.. sure u are saying :'tis women ki siao dy!'

No, I'm not depressed. How can I be? I've got so many things going for me right now. So many things to look forward too. So many things to be thankful for but notyet..I juz can't ignore this feeling that I've had for a couple of years now.

hmrppp...wat is the art of cutting..huh? will it feels like a tatto??

Is that much fun?I've saw about it but I've never tried it. You know, there's nothing like first experience.So what do you think? XD Should I go for it? The blade's not very far. And I'll be sure to sterelize it properly. At least try anyways.

No, I'm not attention for seeking. I just want to know what is it?Can't you just stub your toe in the door? I'm sure it cause u pain inn that way too. Want to see your blooooood? Go donate some. You'll see it either way.. =D

Go figure. But really, I want to know. Someone tell me if you can, what makes it so...erm..donno how to descride...? I won't judge. I just want to understand.

** OH YA!i saw my mr.vanness on tv..is a live show(Golden Hourse Award)! he was juz so near wit me..and he is still so MAN! XDDDDDD

oh well..Goodnite =D

2008-12-02T11:19:00.003Z

Just got back. Stoning now, before I go to sleep. i'm so tired. I was a geek in d exam hall today. Wearing my glasses, PROUDLY. hehehe..

Didn't get much sleep. i gotta to sleeeeep very early today!

i tell u wert..I didn't have enough time to finish my paper T T I don't know how people finished theirs in under and hour. I had three hours and was writing up till they said, " Please put down your pens." * exasperated sigh *.

Frustrating lah*again* = = i've been wanting to do well for my it oh so badly, but by the looks of it, my two strongest subjects have been going down hill. Luckily I passed them already but I was aiming just a tiny bit higher for maybe a distinction. High distiction is unattainable. Rawr ~..

nvm nvm nvm...the most important thing is PASSED! =D

2008-12-02T04:44:00.002Z

right, so it's the first week of dec.my birthday juz passed.. Not so happening tis year coz everyone s not here.In fact, i did asolutely nothing.I slept in till close to 2 on tat day, got up, washed up and practically stoned in front of my notes till dinner time.* swt * actuallly i was expecting a special birthday celebration tis year..But anyway, i had my birthday dinner wit my bro at home.Aish, feel so pity but then again, i'd enjoy it. thanks bro! Hahaha..

I dl-ed two new songs. Fall out boy and Maroon 5. Ehhh, it was such a let down man. Fall out boy again. No nice arh.. not really. Thanks for the memories is like the best song on it. Totally gonna get Funeral for a friend. Heard it's good so, yerp.

~ weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. Did pretty much nothing. * sigh *. but then, i ended up sleeping at 4 am. Don't ask me what i did. No clue. Before i knew it, *OH SHIT* 4am dy.so stupid.

Woke up and felt like a zombie whilts i got ready for exam later. Gosh, it was as though i was floating outside my body. You know that feeling don't you. Well, sent my bro to the bus stop in d early morning..he is going down to kl..he is officially FREE now!! hahaha. left me and dad at home..so i was pretty much exposed and alone. haha, i just felt weird larh coz nobody at home.. tak biasa >.<

hrmppp...is 1pm now...gonna sit for law in two hours times..WAHHH!! so Nervous yet excited!!!Shytt. Crap. Oh gosh.after 6 i gooona BURN all my LAW notes....or mayb throw into the sea..nyek nyek..i juz don wan to see it anymore!!!!

erm yea...gotta do some las minutes revisionnow !! Sial..

Bye!!!!